A vague called "Life"

well...Now I am here to speak to you bit seriously.....some thing about my mind....a mind of a hombre in his 20's...!!..well,this will not be the case with every person....its midnight now...I dont know how each day passes by..most of the time i plays the role of a spectator who have a close look at life...I plans many things...but with that planz.."the time" plays its role like 'being' a hurricane...I could only just watch the hurricane getting away through my window called my mind...The hurricane takes everything with it including my dreamz,planz, and every minute thing....How can I save these things...?? ...May be...sometimes I knows the answer and Sometimes I don't...But I have seen people resisting the hurricane so easily and giving life to their dreamz and planz..Its not an easy job..As" rome was not built  in a day"...Some times some questions circles me with their laugh like an evil..But i feel a contempt which sometimes result in a disliking of "myself"..Why do I live ??..For whom am I living..?? For what reason am I living..?? ....Where will I reach in the long run called life ?? ...Any way I have answers...sharp Optimistic answers for some questions...and for some the answer seems to be a vaccum.....

                                                               When I walk through a busy street called life....I never bothered the hot sun nor the heavy dust nor the vehicles that were passing through my side...instead I was lost in thoughts.... My brain was like an oven  which sometimes made me feel that I am hotter than the sun...many thoughts were going through my mind...I used to publish it.....some people gave me compliments for that and told that I have "creativity"...but i dont know....how many of them knew that those were not just "creative thoughts" but my life..!!! .... how can u call it as a talent..?? 

                                                               Most of the time life was playing with me....I played the hardest role...though it seemed to be easy...now I realize...its never that easy to complete this drama called life..."What I suffered were not sufferings"..things are yet to come....I prayed and prayed and prayed....some people says that my prayers were not strong,some says that I was no dedicated...but I still believes..what I did was from the depth of my heart ........

                                          Many thoughts passes by each and every minute...I shared most of them........but being practical....???...thatz the main question that screams at me like a night mare.........

                                 Some times lying in the sands of a beach in an evening seems to be the most  felicitous  thing in life....watching the roaring waves that can take you any moment, staggering at the endless limits that u see...and smiling at the stars and moon and speaking to yourself...It can be called as "innocence"...I still believes.."I am innocent"...may be thatz the greatest defect that you can find in a person in this 21st century.....

                                I can't write much as sleep is ebracing me with its soothness..I gets it every day ..whatever it be......cheerzzz sleep........though I know that this post is not complete..I am stopping here..!!!