Saturday, March 21, 2009

A vague called "Life"

well...Now I am here to speak to you bit seriously.....some thing about my mind....a mind of a hombre in his 20's...!!..well,this will not be the case with every person....its midnight now...I dont know how each day passes by..most of the time i plays the role of a spectator who have a close look at life...I plans many things...but with that planz.."the time" plays its role like 'being' a hurricane...I could only just watch the hurricane getting away through my window called my mind...The hurricane takes everything with it including my dreamz,planz, and every minute thing....How can I save these things...?? ...May be...sometimes I knows the answer and Sometimes I don't...But I have seen people resisting the hurricane so easily and giving life to their dreamz and planz..Its not an easy job..As" rome was not built  in a day"...Some times some questions circles me with their laugh like an evil..But i feel a contempt which sometimes result in a disliking of "myself"..Why do I live ??..For whom am I living..?? For what reason am I living..?? ....Where will I reach in the long run called life ?? ...Any way I have answers...sharp Optimistic answers for some questions...and for some the answer seems to be a vaccum.....

                                                               When I walk through a busy street called life....I never bothered the hot sun nor the heavy dust nor the vehicles that were passing through my side...instead I was lost in thoughts.... My brain was like an oven  which sometimes made me feel that I am hotter than the sun...many thoughts were going through my mind...I used to publish it.....some people gave me compliments for that and told that I have "creativity"...but i dont know....how many of them knew that those were not just "creative thoughts" but my life..!!! .... how can u call it as a talent..?? 

                                                               Most of the time life was playing with me....I played the hardest role...though it seemed to be easy...now I realize...its never that easy to complete this drama called life..."What I suffered were not sufferings"..things are yet to come....I prayed and prayed and prayed....some people says that my prayers were not strong,some says that I was no dedicated...but I still believes..what I did was from the depth of my heart ........

                                          Many thoughts passes by each and every minute...I shared most of them........but being practical....???...thatz the main question that screams at me like a night mare.........

                                 Some times lying in the sands of a beach in an evening seems to be the most  felicitous  thing in life....watching the roaring waves that can take you any moment, staggering at the endless limits that u see...and smiling at the stars and moon and speaking to yourself...It can be called as "innocence"...I still believes.."I am innocent"...may be thatz the greatest defect that you can find in a person in this 21st century.....

                                I can't write much as sleep is ebracing me with its soothness..I gets it every day ..whatever it be......cheerzzz sleep........though I know that this post is not complete..I am stopping here..!!!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Simply.....but ......Frankly and Humbly.... :-)

well,,,I am going to tell you something very simply but frankly and humbly....thatz it.....Now its 11:43 am....me sitting in my room....listening to feel my love.....just dedicating this melody to each and every girl i wanted to love......as my star sign [Libra] says I am flirtious.....but its upto you my girls to decide that.....but one way or the other I cant say an answer for that......coz I believe that I have not yet flirted.....but sometimes I feel that....so I asks a question to myself...Am I flirting..???....that time my mind says no dude.....U are not...!!!... this happens with every girl and boy in my age ...I guess....U can call it 'Fantasies of Mind"..According to my philosophy "Enjoy each and every Moment....[provided that]... U dont hurt any one"......Now If u can't accept my view...let me ask you one question....'Why do boys and Girls cares their dressing,fashion,make up...??? ....Its simply because to attract the opposite sex.....If u do this...then you are a human being...a perfect one....If u dont do this at all instance u can be called called as partially insane....yup I do hereby accept the fact that...I am some times an idiot...because some times I dont care...the way i dress or the way I make me appear in front of others....But sometimes I do cares more than any one else.....and I have made the conclusion that when I cares....I plays the role of a magnet...coz opposite poles attract each other....hence it is proved..he he.....now......

To be frank I came here not to tell you this..but to tell something else.....some bla bla bla....I was lying on my bed listening to some music.....but upon the hot oven called... EXAMZ ....so I thought of blogging something......now let me start from the very begining.....its 12:05 now.....its a sunny day.......I am all alone in my den......the most interesting fact is that....can u guess...???.....oyeee...dont go complicated.......the fact is that I am having Examz on 23rd...still now I haven't even started studying......I have to write 12 papers on a row this time....5th sem,3rd sem and 1st sem....now talking about 1st sem examz...

As told in my earlier blog..i was having a room....during that time.......may be its coz of examz,,,i took a room for the first time.....before the first exam....my room mate told me something.......its our first day ...right..??? so lets celebrate after studying......yeah...I agreed with a silent answer...though I didn't want it the day before exam.....we took some mischieveous alcohol....put that in front of that and started studying upon a condition that we'll touch it only after finishing that text........any way we completed our studies succesfully.......had a descent drink.....the very next day we wrote the examz very well....cheeerzzzz........this same procedure continued 4 the next exam also........that too we wrote...even though it was not so well written......the 3rd exam was some how postponed for some reason by the university......and on the day before the fourth exam....we both came to the conclusion that we dont know any thing......we were complete zeros.....so the old procedure will be a foolish idea......so we started studying......we studied something....by that time 'one of my friend called me and asked me where I am..I told that i was in my room...." ..he told that he is coming with a surprise......

Within half an hour he came....Ohhhh...I forgot to introduce you that idiot...In fact he is a film director[assistant] and also a national award winner...He won the best director award for a short film....I should say that he is a completely self made man......ok ok....leave that..lets come to our story.....he came with some bucks and told us ...."I am going to give you a treat....but for no reason..."... he brought some alcohol......we gave off our studies.....we thought..."lets study after taking some drinks....so that we can understand better...any way its law ...right..??."...to be frank I have heard of people studying the day before the examz...with some drinks...I dont know how they manages....but thatz a truth any way.........but some how we failed to study...we thought its enough........for today...the rest 2morow morning...to be frank we have covered more than half of that subject by that time....but after being drunk...we were talking about history..."the indian history" instead....dont know why....he he :-).....we spoke about films,history...almost all stupid topics including "poli tricks" ......

I still remembers one of my friend's famous dialogue......he was drunk one day....he wanted to call a girl and ask a doubt....atlast he did that...u know what it is..???....he called a girl in the hostel,,,and asked....."ee pakkavada whiskiyil mukkunathanoo nallathe atho pachyke kazhikunathanoo nallate...??? ""....now lets come to our topic....suddenly i thought of making some fun...but with some risk...any way we were intoxicated.......we planned of getting into the law college hostel at night....2 be frank its the worst place for a first year law student to be....but I wanted to be in.........

The director agreed to fulfill my dream......3 of us....went to the college.....the law college had a complete mystic look at night......some thing like a dracula's palace....it seemed as if the dead criminals who wanted to take revenge against the lawyers lived there.........any way we entered inside......the director was leading from the front.......he took us to the hostel...to be frank i was excited as well as nervous as i entered the campus....any thing can happen now........but some how we managed to get inside.........they started staring at us and asked who we are....??we kept silence....."i thought... thalle pani kitti"......some people were having their drink .....the director went and asked ... 'if he could also get a drink" ...i thought of running away....but no way we were trapped.......one guy went towards him as if he was going to give a punch....then suddenly he asked some names.....the drunken ones told that "they are not here ....come 2morow....u get lost now".....as i heard the word "get lost"..i was happy.....some how both of us managed to pull him outside the campus.....and told him that "we are happy"......2 be frank my wish was fulfilled....though i was praying very hardly fore some minutes.....then he asked if we had some wish again.....by this time it was 1 am midnight...we went to our room......opened the nxt bottle.......2 be frank...dont know how i slept....i lost my conscious.....the nxt day we woke up by 10...half an hour have finished....."exam"...some how...i washed my face...brushed my teeth ..had a quick visit to the bathroom....changed my clothes...ran to the college...but i was late....the principle asked,..."why you were late??...I told....sir my room mate fell in bathroom...so i went to hospital",...sir plzz give me a chance.....but he told.....'U write it next time...that will be better..."...I begged...but I couldn't make up his mind......when i got the questions...I found that I could answer those questions easily.....but what to do....bitter experiences makes life...right..??......

Any way thatz how i wrote my first semester law examz....hope i can be a Gud Criminal Lawyer just because I did all these things..he he :-) .......

I don't have any worries or tensions now coz I haven't studied any thing.. so let me make some worries.....I am going to study my lessons....this time I am not ready for a compromise...I shall....at any cost......!!!!