Intoxicated Evening...

It was Raining .... I decided to be Out.....Finished the Last Drop of Alcohol......Some One Called me from My Back With an Umbrella....But Later Only I realised that It was Just an Illusion........I stepped out.....It was Murky Outside....The Roaring Sound of Wind and the Splashing Rain Played its Trick....Any Way I enjoyed that......

Started Walking Without the Destination......When I Started the Only Aim was to Enjoy the Rain......Mind was dancing with the Rain.........Just Managed to get two Polythene Bags......Used one to Cover My head and used the other to protect My Wallet and Mobile.......after walking some distance through that narrow road....I turned My eyes into My Watch.......Through the Foggy glass of the watch.....I found the time....My Time...It was 4 Pm......By this time I was Completely Wet......My Friend called Intoxication was getting ready to leave me......Now I have a new Friend called Rain.....I was never alone....My thoughts was always My best Friend....whatever it be....Where ever it be......

The next aim was to Catch the Train .....I started running......I splashed water.....I enjoyed that......the Feeling of elation again......Managed to get into a Bus........Opened My Polythene Bag......took some bucks....No one was daring at me except a small child.......I just gave a blinking smile....but he was astonished to see a man completely wet in that semi-wet bus.....he was happy and safe in his mother's lap......once I also must have passed the same condition.......

I was Enjoying the Wet Atmosphere of the City through the Misty glass of the Bus......But I Couldn't enjoy those scenes.......I started running again........

Wet Street........I never Minded the rain.....Just enjoyed it.......As I ran to the Railway Station I was Laughing in between.....Some how Managed to get into the railway station......took ticket with the Currency from My Wallet....For God's sake it was not wet.....

Got into the train.......I didn't sit...I managed to be near the Door....It was raining hard......I was longing for such a Journey since the last Rain....Train attained speed gradually.......Rain drops plashed My monocle......I had to wipe My Monocles in between.....As the Wind blew harder I was Shivering....Some how I wanted to enjoy the Journey with Rain....I was enjoying the Scenes Outside.....In between I Noticed some people Staring at me.....Some where even teasing me.......but...I never Cared.......I was felicitous enough to enjoy all this.......

The Scenes outside was soothing to both the Mind and Eyes.......Happy Streams.....Pullulating Birds.....cernuous trees.....quaggy paddy fields......Children Coming after school with Umbrellas........Some where even walking with banana leaf on their head which You can see only in a country like India.......After some time I realised that I can't stand there any more as I was Shivering harder....I found My seat.....As soon as I sat I was attacked by forty winks.....I didn't knew as time passed......In between My phone ringed....I was waked up from My Cat Sleep.....I looked through the window....I was nearing My station......

I reached My station.....By this time I got a New Friend....I was Hungry .....I wanted something to eat....After effect of alcohol......By this time the Rain started its Dance again.....It wanted me to dance with it....I decided to get wet again......Just walked out of the station in the rain....this time no elation...the only aim was to feed My stomach.......I found a small eat out.....

It was a small shop with four wheels.....An old women was making food.....Her face told her story and sufferings......A sheet was attached to the caravon as a shelter from rain........I got inside the shelter.....rubbed my head with My kerchief...wiped My Monacles........

The Old Women asked....."Oh My Boy.....Why are You Wet....You Should take Care.." ..I smiled at her....But She was not that Happy with My Peckish Smile......She gave Me Some "Doshas" to eat....I started eating it avariciously......By this time I found that the tent was leaking.....My Dosha was also wet with those drops of water....But I didn't complain.....I finished it......I was happy with what she gave me.......

Some how Managed to get an Auto Rickshaw.......Reached home......As I reached home.....'Amma' was waiting for me.......took a bath....straight to the kitchen to have her delicious cuisines.......As I saw that I was Hungry Again.... :-)

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Village Scenes.....

" Dedicating this to My Grand Mother Who left Me on the 22nd of September......I know that You will be watching Me from the Sky as a Star....as Once You have told Me.....The Stars that are Twinkling at You are Your Dear One's......Love You "Amooma"...!!! "


Well People....After a long Interval I am back......Had some hectic days......Now I am free....Its murky out.....As I looked out My Mind travelled to some where else.....I was thinking about Gandhiji....as today is Gandhi Jayanthi.....that thought took me to Villages....as Once he said....Go back to Villages ...right..??

Now Going back to villages.....I basically belong to a village.....A place where I see green every where....A place where the nature Plays the Music for My Song.....A place where I see People Pure at heart...A place where the Sun,Sky and the Dew provides me with light, shade and drops of happiness........

Taking a long walk through a village road can be much interesting......It takes you to ecstasy...but to enjoy all these You need a gud mind....A mind pure at heart....A mind which can talk to the singing birds,the whistling wind and the nodding plants.......How many of You have this...??

The Kind of atmosphere that You can get from a village is entirely different from that of a City...If you need Serenity you need to be there........Taking a Long dive into the tittering river....a pleasant swim......splashing the water into the face of your friend and a long run to Your home through the paddy field in a wet condition.....suddenly...You slips into the paddy field.....just giggling at your friend..alas...its clay,.......

Throwing Stones at the Mango Tree aiming at the Ripe Ones....but Most of the time You gets the Small Sour Mangoes.....Some how Manages to eat it with the Salt and Chilly Powder that you have already treasured from the kitchen.......

After having that only You realises that you are red hot and tears are coming from your eyes.......to get away from this condition...you starts throwing stones again....at last prays to the wind.......and.....

Finally....You decides to get into the tree to get those ripe ones........some how you manages to be in the top of the tree...suddenly you realises that the tree was full of ants.....you some how plucks some ......jumps out of the tree from the lowest branch....by this time your body will be covered with ants.......manages to laugh with others .....though you were chafed and annoyed by the ants.....Am I missing all these..???

Smiling at that Innocent Girl...nearby with a Naughty Look...with the Expectation that She May smile back.....but here... She Runs away from You....and then Hiding some where...Just to watch whether You are Looking at her...........

Having that Yummy Dishes that were made from the Crops from your field....the kind of taste that touches your taste buds.......a long nap under the bamboo tree.......

Running behind those hens to get them into their hidey-hole......so that they will be secure till next morning.......fetching water from the well......to take a cool bath.......

A long run to the River side.....to say Wishes to the setting sun....Collecting some hay.......Feeding those cattles......with some serious talks with them......

A short prayer at the end of the day with that respect and dignity....that God deserves......

Astounding at the stars ...just to see whether they have formed any shapes.......smiling at them as they twinkles at me.......

Being there with the Grand Mother to study some Lessons and to hear some Tales......as they are unique in its character......having dinner with some talks about the day...and a safe and happy sleep on the mat next to her bed..........

Am I missing all these..???....


Yes I do.........I am Missing each and every thing........As time plays its role......these memories are fading away from My mind......I can only watch them.......weeping at them.....like a small child who screams at his father to get the Moon........

"Beyond Powers.......Beyond Imaginations......Beyond Creativity...there is a World....a World Of Eternity.....Let her Rest In Peace....!!! "

Incompleted Inclinations....

Well.....After a Month I am back....but this time no Idea....Its a Cool evening....the fan is plying in its full speed and I am shivering.....though I was enjoying this condition smirking at the darkness outside......

Just stepped out of My room into the balcony to see the one whom I always wanted to see...Any way its not the girl in the next door..he he...Its the Moon......It always smiled at me from the time I was looking at it....What should I call Moon....?? Him or Her....I guess its better to call the Moon "Him"....The small stars surrounded the Moon as if they were Protecting the moon .....Any way the Moon is a Kingpin....he has lot of friendz na....?....Stars,Planets,Shooting Stars,Sky......

I felt like lying there in the terrace.....but its damn cold...any way I am not going to care......I guess not every one can do this......You need to be lucky enough to be in this state of Euphoric....any way I am lucky......I looked at the stars...they all are winking at me....One day I'll also be a star......winking at My dearest Ones.....The Moon was smiling at me.....I was at the peak of elation this time......there goes a shooting star....I guess the shooting stars will be messengers of the stars and the Moon...Is the Moon in love with the stars. ??

The Sun Must be sleeping now after it heavy work.......Sun is too bold and the Moon gives you aplomb.....Have you ever wondered why you are assailed when You are under the hot Sun....? .....The sun is making you strong enough to face challenges in life.....as Life is full of Struggles and Challenges......

Life is full of Questions and Answers...No one can answer all the Questions......Incompleted answers makes life....Life loves You coz You loves life..... You can never expect love by abnegating love....I guess its true with life also......

I am getting embraced by My princess now......I guess I am safe in her hands....She provides me with Care....after the hectic day.....She refreshes me......In fact no one can live without her.....Let me love her now..... :-)

A Morning Dream....

Well...Friends...I am here today with some themes...But don't know how to present it.....I believe I am a still a small child in the world of blogs......Last night I was much tired...I had to skip My dinner.....I was having cold..I guess......as there is nothing unusual for me getting cold this season....Its raining hard here in Kerala......

Its very intersting to be in your den watching the rain with a cup of coffee or tea in your hand.....but this time I had to find my place inside My blanket astounding at the rain...The rain was singing loud this time...I was watching it through my window lying there in My bed....Droplets of water touched my face in between......."blessed"

I don't know how I slept in between...It was damn cold outside and damn hot inside my body...It can be compared to the struggle between the individual and the society in life......

Didn't knew how I slept....I was conquered by sleep in between......The Princess of sleep called Dreamz was waiting for me.....this time I was taken to a world by the Princess....For me Everything seemed to be strange.......A place which seemed like heaven...later only I realised that it was the paradise called heaven....

It seemed as if some one was showing me light...I walked through the direction of the light......Suddenly the light ceased...I felt as If some one was holding me back.....It was the king of evil..the satan.....

It was holding me back......It prompted me to commit sins.....But suddenly the light came again and started me to show the way....I was in between the two....I tried to pull my hand from the evil...but it was holding me tight.....I tried and tried.....but I failed......

Suddenly the light came closer to me......the light helped me to stay serene in the midst of turbulence......The evil was burned in the gloriole.......I was absorbed by the light.....and was placed as a star there......I was given My halo.......

Suddenly the light turned into a deity....I was asked to go back to earth and to do What it did to me when I was in the hands of the satan.......

I was also given the occult power......Suddenly a shooting star came......It took me back to earth.....It landed on the sea.......

Suddenly I felt that I am out of My bed.......Ohhh God....Everything Was a Dream....and I was Completely alright......

Friends and Enemies..!!!

Well,Friendz ..This is a Random thought which came to My mind during a Walk...I guess Its true with Each One of Us...

"If You Have Time to Listen....then You will Have More Friendz.... If You have only time to Speak....then You will have more Enemies...!!!"

From Walk to Death...!!!

Well....Friendzz....I am back....Today I have lot of things to say to You people....In fact today morning My mind was filled up with lots of thoughts and I am here to share it with You....don't know whether I can express it the way I wanted....but one thing I can assure....You won't get bored....

Most of My thoughts happens in the morning with My breakfast....U'll be thinking how. ??.. U know the best time to have better refreshing thoughts is morning...just coz your mind is brisk.......Well its a Fact that it takes around 1-2 hours to finish My breakfast...this is how it happens.....The Television will be on with some music channels and I'll be in front of that with my breakfast......Different thoughts comes in my mind as I Skips through different Music channels....I'll be dancing,eating and some times even Acting.....but this is not possible if my father is there in den........

Well.....How many of You loves Walking.....Of course I loves walking.....but definitely not in the afternoon....I loves taking a long walk in the evening......It refreshes your mind.......It gives you energy.....You can have Innovative thoughts with your walk.....An Innovative thought can be the Best Pal for the Walk......Earlier I used to walk everyday.....Most of the times I starts from my den by 6 pm...I guess its the best time to do it......just extends My walks through pocket roads...coz these type of roads will be traffic free..... and My walk ends in the bridge which is 1 km away from my home......

U know being in a bridge in the evening is fabulous...Its like being in a heaven....You can see the sun set.....I guess the sun will be tired after its work..... the birds will be flying to their nests making different sounds....I guess they will be singing. ....because they are going back to their nests. Their Young ones Will be waiting for them....the clouds will be moving as if some one is following them....well...I don't mind grinning at them upon the thought that they will consider me the next time when I am under the hot sun ....the sky in the west will be red in colour...which itself resembles the warning to all humans for all the sins they have committed that day......these live scenarios brisks your senses and strong breeze calms down your mind which can fetch you ataraxis.......

I have even thought.....If someone was lying on My shoulders when I was there........So I have decided..."Better that Girl be My bride than being My Love"....I am not ready to dawdle any more......So U'll be thinking whether I am a Flirt ???.....to be frank Definitely not...!!!...but Once I loved a girl.....She was my friend....but later only I realized that I am in love with her and this relation is not for good...just Coz I was living in such an orthodox society....I won't be able to marry her....So we Split Up on a Mutual Understanding ....."Friendship often ends in love but love in Friendship never"...these words by Charles Caleb Colton is true .....I realized it.....

Now talking about Death...I have always wondered who will check My orkut account and My mails When I am dead......Does My soul can do it..??? Is there a life after death......I am still in search for an answer.....But any way I haven't planned of dying soon....Mind it.. :-)

Mixture of Complicated Thoughts.....!!!

Well....Here I am.....back in My Den...right in front of My lappy....the time being 1:00 am....pheww...have to leave the den by 6 tomorrow...I guess... I have hectic dayz a head....I can't even think of it.....I don't know how hard some days are....Long walks under the hot Sun....restless travellings.....and the only thing you find a comfort atlast is a sleep......A nice pleasant sleep after a cool bath....hmmm....I guess thatz a relief after a hectic day.....but If You can't sleep.......Sighh.....There is no need of a sleeping pill......Just take a book....Hmm...let it be a stuff that you don't like.....try to read.....concentrate more on that book when you are getting bored......I assure...Its a Fact that You will fall into the squishy hands of sleep......Beautiful stars will accompany you....the moon itself will look after you....with its cute smile........the cool sky will provide you with shelter .....and the cool breeze will give you comfort.....

U can have a cool dive into the deep sea of sleep....U can get pebbles called happiness......Beautiful scenes called Dreamz and of course .....Energy......

Now talking about energy...Do You lose Your energy If some one knocks U down....If the answer is Yes......then U need to change .....just coz....U can never live with this attitude.....Don't ever mind what others think of You or Speak of You...Itz ur life and you are living it....So live it.....live like a king......be your own king and make your own realms....but be careful never get into other kingdoms...or try to conquer other realms.....Why should we hurt others..???

Never allow Your attitude to determine your relations...just coz attitudes changes with time...... It will be difficult for you get back a broken relationship.....So never ever mix your attitude with your relations.....Relations....Its a topic I have blogged once.....

Relations ....its a need of the hour.....Its not necessary that all people will be with you all the time......We makes new relations...we maintain relations.....we loses relations.....but at times it hurts a lot when U lose a relation....But mind it.....Changes make life....

How can a person live if there are no changes...???...Its the law of nature that there should be changes......

But for My friendz......
plz keep this pledge....

"Friendz we are.....Friendz we will be.....Friendz we should be..." !!!

The Subtle Song..!!!

It was raining hard outside....I was locked in my room by my laziness...My lappy accompanied me with that laziness.....Wind was in its full fledge....Big trees were dancing like never before......the tiny plants seemed as if they were dancing in the rain...Flowers in my garden nodded which itself expressed their joy..... I could see the water dancing in my balcony.....My windows were touched up with thick layers of water.....I moved towards it...just to give an unexpressible feeling to my eyes and mind......

My Mind was also travelling somewhere else.......As it rained harder....My vision started fading....In fact my window was bleary with mist...I wiped it with my hand.....But it was getting blurred and blurred..... I was in a paradise.....I felt the rhythm of my heart .....It was dancing like a peacock......I was singing.....the music of rain gave me the orchestra......the wind gave me the treble and the thunder gave me the bass.....The elusive song was sung for hours.....I was lost in it.....I was enjoying my subtle mind.....

Suddenly I was awaked from this state of mind by a thunder.....which itself formed the bass for my song.......I was nettled.....how could the bass for my song make me annoying..??...I couldn't find an answer.....I didn't curse it....coz I know its a necessary that I should awake from my subtle mind....afterall I am a simple human being......
By this time.....everything seemed to be calm....but the atmosphere was murky......the nature itself was getting ready for the next song.....and I waited for it........the notional song.....sung by me and my nature......let it rain and rain...!!!

I Adore......I Admire....I Respect.....

Well, as Usual I am here...but I have a stuff in mind..but no idea about presenting it to you people....U'll be thinking what I am going to blurt....Yeah I'll be going to scrap on "I Adore....I Admire....I Respect"...well,obviously a question will come to your mind Whom I adore,I admire and Respect...Well...I haven't found that answer...Let's find it out...!!!

"My Mom"...well that makes a part of it..well,this is a much discussed topic...but I have my own things to say.....My mom.....Well, definitely a person whom I adores,admires and respects more than any one else in this world.....A mom should be every one's role model just coz she teached you to be what you are....She moulded you in the way you are now.....You can never say what all things your mom did to make what you are now......

She have Suffered,She was Patient,She Forgived,She Cared,She Loved, She invigorated you when you were ill,She renovated you when you were in despair, She scolded you when you were wrong, She became your friend when you were lonely,She teached you lessons etc etc etc ..Every one studies their first lessons from their mother.......I still remembers my gud old school days.....I should thank my mother...She teached me to write,read and to recite.... I am here now just coz she did that....thanks mom... :-)

During my school days My mom used to teach me my lessons in the evening....Every day she used to sit beside me to make me do my home work.....She'll be having a small stick with her most of the times.....My mother is a typical school teacher...So she never bothered flapping her stick when I was wrong.....but there were occasions when my mom cried with me after her tiny punishments..!!...If you ask me about my concept of an ideal match....I'll definitely say this.."She should be like my mother".....

But after my Matriculation my mother started asking me doubts...I wondered why my encyclopedia is asking me doubts ....but some how I realised that She made me fly and I now know to fly higher.......thanks mom for making me what I am.......


I started with much things to say...the topic called "women" but My Mom is enough to show what a Women is.....She is wrapped with all the qualities of a Perfect women...Love You Mom....mwhaaaa...... ;-)

A Short Love Message with Much Intensity :-)

Well,see the quote below....!!!

"When I was Drowning in the sea called Perdition,You came like an angel to save me...Now I know that my life is safe in the hands of my angel. Even the Sea storm and gale that came in between couldn't tear us apart and I know that our relation is so Strong that no one can tear us apart coz U are my soul...!!!"

This is a quote made by me for my chum, one year back and I found it in a piece of paper in my wallet.....My chum asked me to write something with some literature for giving it to his girl friend.....Any way I made it short but with much intensity.....some how I liked it very much after the Completion...!!!

Synopsis : -

In fact that guy was lost in life [Drowning in perdition]....when a girl came like an angel to his life.....Now he is sure that he is in safe love with his love....The sea storm and gale here represents the parents of that girl and the problems that occured in between... :-) ..and they couldn't even tear them apart....and so and so that girl is his soul now and no one can tear them apart ....!!!

"Relations" ...A much Complicated One to Deal With..!!!

Well...Before I start I would like to thank all my readers who have visited this blog ,read my articles and told their opinions,comments and criticisms....I would like to "dedicate" this to all my readers...Let our relationship become stronger as the needle in the clock runs.....!!!

As usual I don't have any impromptu as I start....I am here today to tell you something about Relations or what you call "Relationships'....."Relations" seems to be very necessary as we live in a society....We have ,kinships,Friends,fellow beings,mates,love etc etc etec...In fact its difficult to describe all type of relations here...better say I am lazy to do so.....

I would rather say most of the relations changes with time and there is no need of a point of controversy here....Its the need of the hour to make new relations what ever it be and there is no meaning in regretting for what you lost....how many of us keeps in touch with our 'best friend' who studied with us in the kindergarten ??...Time played its role and we met so many people and made so many relations....we got new friends and even new chums.....


Now lets talk about friendship....How many of your friends can die for you if you are in a need..?? As the old quote says "A friend in need is a friend indeed"..As you reads this you will be wondering with your question...What this idiot is saying ??...Now answer me for the question..?? If it seems difficult for you to answer my question I'll say .....

If there is some one who will die for you when you are in a need hold that person tight else there is a chance that you will loose them in the long run called life.....But If there is some one who will do what you want without sacrificing their life then trust them....coz that person can hold you......thatz the simple way of defining good friendship...!!!!....

Relations depends on sacrifices and understandings..If you can't sacrifice something then it will be difficult for you to maintain them.....There were Occasions when I felt the importance of relations....I am not going to speak to you about that in detail...coz it may be boring..!!!


Love and friendship ??..How many of us can differentiate it..?? I would rather say a person in the 20's won't be able to do it.....According to Charles Caleb Colton..."Friendship often ends in love but love in friendship never"....but this point of controversy is true in a lay man's eyes....but if we gets into the detail of some affairs it is not true.....!!!

I'll accept the fact that "some relations have no names" just coz some times some people can be what ever you want..You can't call them neither as a love nor a friend nor a sibbling....It is a stuff to be felt and it cannot be understood just through verbal expressions,speech or thought...

It is not necessary that one should keep in touch regularly with another to maintain a relationship...Gud relations should be made from the heart not from the affections you show.....One should be able to communicate through mind....I guess its possible even though its bit difficult.....

I guess keeping a relation with our soul have great importance....If each and every one is able to communicate with their soul then it will be easy to control worldly pleasures which can even control the temporal world....A soul can be your most trusted friend at times....I think you must have experienced a phenemenon in which you felt as if some one was saying to do something or not to do something and thatz the voice of your soul.....

Relations is a huge and complicated topic that is to be discussed like an epic...I tried to give an outline of what I had to say . To be frank I am not that satisfied with this post....Any way as I said let our relations be stronger and stronger.......!!!

Thoughts and Actions...

Well....As I start I don't have anything to blog...Don't know whether I'll complete this or not.....some days back I got some things to say to you people....But due to my laziness I couldn't even vault through the steps to reach my room...Finally the menace called exams was over..I was back in my den with a free heart.....Cigars are playing an important role in my life..don't know Why I am much attached to it at times....though it weakens my health most of the times...I remember some one saying that "A cigarete can be your best friend....coz when U feel lonely it gives u a company"....one way or the other its true...but definitely against morality..so I'll say better avoid it....

 

Now lying here in my bed It seems as if I am trapped in the four walls of my room....the fan was plying in its full speed....Looking at it my mind was travelling some where else...yeah....dreamz and thoughts again....beautiful dreams and powerful thoughts can make your soul happy and energetic at times....one day I'll be a lawyer .....A lawyer with lots of passions,money,fame and power...did I miss something..??...yup another important thing that people don't have today is "peace of mind"...but I have it at times....Most of the times I am losing it now a days....My mind was lost in thoughts...Life can be compared to a journey....A journey were hard work at the beginning matter a lot....It decides which deviation you should take....well I have started my journey but the work have not yet started...A ferment is necessary for the bolt...most of the times life itself is suppressing me..its better to say I am suppressed by my actions...If u believe in some astronomy they call it actions of your time..,,some how or the other I am made to believe in my fate by my life.....now let me ask a question to myself...when did I had good time..???..When shall My good times come..?? The answer that my mind gave me was ...Your good times and Bad times is controlled by your actions...So better control your actions and this can bring your time to good even if it is in the bad track....

 

Yup...I understood...but most of the times My plans are very huge,optimistic and perfect...but as it comes to action..I fail to maintain my plans and thoughts...I fails and Fails...don't know why...whom shall I curse..?? 

Again I am cursing myself...but my pathetic supporting atmosphere comes like a bitch to make problems worse...I know that I have atmospheres to make all things right......but its not that easy to do so......

 

Enjoying each and every part of your life is not easy...How many of us can enjoy the hot sun,dashing winds and the timeless rain..???...If u can find an enjoyment then you'll be the one.....these things can also be compared to life........

 

 

A hermit never win his life.....but he loses each and every part of his life by obtaining solitude....what a hermit does is escaping from life.....the same dedication if he should have shown in life he should have been in a better position.....Talking about peace of mind here..."does the hermits have peace of mind..???" The question still remains in front of me without an answer......some says yes and some says no...but any way I have heard of saints who can even control the climatic condition.......

 

Life teaches us many lessons..but who studies the lessons..??? You can't study the lessons taught by life because you are trapped in the four walls called relations...You can only watch them....else you need to break them out.......

 

to be continued .......any time.......

 

 

 

 

A vague called "Life"

well...Now I am here to speak to you bit seriously.....some thing about my mind....a mind of a hombre in his 20's...!!..well,this will not be the case with every person....its midnight now...I dont know how each day passes by..most of the time i plays the role of a spectator who have a close look at life...I plans many things...but with that planz.."the time" plays its role like 'being' a hurricane...I could only just watch the hurricane getting away through my window called my mind...The hurricane takes everything with it including my dreamz,planz, and every minute thing....How can I save these things...?? ...May be...sometimes I knows the answer and Sometimes I don't...But I have seen people resisting the hurricane so easily and giving life to their dreamz and planz..Its not an easy job..As" rome was not built  in a day"...Some times some questions circles me with their laugh like an evil..But i feel a contempt which sometimes result in a disliking of "myself"..Why do I live ??..For whom am I living..?? For what reason am I living..?? ....Where will I reach in the long run called life ?? ...Any way I have answers...sharp Optimistic answers for some questions...and for some the answer seems to be a vaccum.....

                                                               When I walk through a busy street called life....I never bothered the hot sun nor the heavy dust nor the vehicles that were passing through my side...instead I was lost in thoughts.... My brain was like an oven  which sometimes made me feel that I am hotter than the sun...many thoughts were going through my mind...I used to publish it.....some people gave me compliments for that and told that I have "creativity"...but i dont know....how many of them knew that those were not just "creative thoughts" but my life..!!! .... how can u call it as a talent..?? 

                                                               Most of the time life was playing with me....I played the hardest role...though it seemed to be easy...now I realize...its never that easy to complete this drama called life..."What I suffered were not sufferings"..things are yet to come....I prayed and prayed and prayed....some people says that my prayers were not strong,some says that I was no dedicated...but I still believes..what I did was from the depth of my heart ........

                                          Many thoughts passes by each and every minute...I shared most of them........but being practical....???...thatz the main question that screams at me like a night mare.........

                                 Some times lying in the sands of a beach in an evening seems to be the most  felicitous  thing in life....watching the roaring waves that can take you any moment, staggering at the endless limits that u see...and smiling at the stars and moon and speaking to yourself...It can be called as "innocence"...I still believes.."I am innocent"...may be thatz the greatest defect that you can find in a person in this 21st century.....

                                I can't write much as sleep is ebracing me with its soothness..I gets it every day ..whatever it be......cheerzzz sleep........though I know that this post is not complete..I am stopping here..!!!

Simply.....but ......Frankly and Humbly.... :-)

well,,,I am going to tell you something very simply but frankly and humbly....thatz it.....Now its 11:43 am....me sitting in my room....listening to feel my love.....just dedicating this melody to each and every girl i wanted to love......as my star sign [Libra] says I am flirtious.....but its upto you my girls to decide that.....but one way or the other I cant say an answer for that......coz I believe that I have not yet flirted.....but sometimes I feel that....so I asks a question to myself...Am I flirting..???....that time my mind says no dude.....U are not...!!!... this happens with every girl and boy in my age ...I guess....U can call it 'Fantasies of Mind"..According to my philosophy "Enjoy each and every Moment....[provided that]... U dont hurt any one"......Now If u can't accept my view...let me ask you one question....'Why do boys and Girls cares their dressing,fashion,make up...??? ....Its simply because to attract the opposite sex.....If u do this...then you are a human being...a perfect one....If u dont do this at all instance u can be called called as partially insane....yup I do hereby accept the fact that...I am some times an idiot...because some times I dont care...the way i dress or the way I make me appear in front of others....But sometimes I do cares more than any one else.....and I have made the conclusion that when I cares....I plays the role of a magnet...coz opposite poles attract each other....hence it is proved..he he.....now......

To be frank I came here not to tell you this..but to tell something else.....some bla bla bla....I was lying on my bed listening to some music.....but upon the hot oven called... EXAMZ ....so I thought of blogging something......now let me start from the very begining.....its 12:05 now.....its a sunny day.......I am all alone in my den......the most interesting fact is that....can u guess...???.....oyeee...dont go complicated.......the fact is that I am having Examz on 23rd...still now I haven't even started studying......I have to write 12 papers on a row this time....5th sem,3rd sem and 1st sem....now talking about 1st sem examz...

As told in my earlier blog..i was having a room....during that time.......may be its coz of examz,,,i took a room for the first time.....before the first exam....my room mate told me something.......its our first day ...right..??? so lets celebrate after studying......yeah...I agreed with a silent answer...though I didn't want it the day before exam.....we took some mischieveous alcohol....put that in front of that and started studying upon a condition that we'll touch it only after finishing that text........any way we completed our studies succesfully.......had a descent drink.....the very next day we wrote the examz very well....cheeerzzzz........this same procedure continued 4 the next exam also........that too we wrote...even though it was not so well written......the 3rd exam was some how postponed for some reason by the university......and on the day before the fourth exam....we both came to the conclusion that we dont know any thing......we were complete zeros.....so the old procedure will be a foolish idea......so we started studying......we studied something....by that time 'one of my friend called me and asked me where I am..I told that i was in my room...." ..he told that he is coming with a surprise......

Within half an hour he came....Ohhhh...I forgot to introduce you that idiot...In fact he is a film director[assistant] and also a national award winner...He won the best director award for a short film....I should say that he is a completely self made man......ok ok....leave that..lets come to our story.....he came with some bucks and told us ...."I am going to give you a treat....but for no reason..."... he brought some alcohol......we gave off our studies.....we thought..."lets study after taking some drinks....so that we can understand better...any way its law ...right..??."...to be frank I have heard of people studying the day before the examz...with some drinks...I dont know how they manages....but thatz a truth any way.........but some how we failed to study...we thought its enough........for today...the rest 2morow morning...to be frank we have covered more than half of that subject by that time....but after being drunk...we were talking about history..."the indian history" instead....dont know why....he he :-).....we spoke about films,history...almost all stupid topics including "poli tricks" ......

I still remembers one of my friend's famous dialogue......he was drunk one day....he wanted to call a girl and ask a doubt....atlast he did that...u know what it is..???....he called a girl in the hostel,,,and asked....."ee pakkavada whiskiyil mukkunathanoo nallathe atho pachyke kazhikunathanoo nallate...??? ""....now lets come to our topic....suddenly i thought of making some fun...but with some risk...any way we were intoxicated.......we planned of getting into the law college hostel at night....2 be frank its the worst place for a first year law student to be....but I wanted to be in.........

The director agreed to fulfill my dream......3 of us....went to the college.....the law college had a complete mystic look at night......some thing like a dracula's palace....it seemed as if the dead criminals who wanted to take revenge against the lawyers lived there.........any way we entered inside......the director was leading from the front.......he took us to the hostel...to be frank i was excited as well as nervous as i entered the campus....any thing can happen now........but some how we managed to get inside.........they started staring at us and asked who we are....??we kept silence....."i thought... thalle pani kitti"......some people were having their drink .....the director went and asked ... 'if he could also get a drink" ...i thought of running away....but no way we were trapped.......one guy went towards him as if he was going to give a punch....then suddenly he asked some names.....the drunken ones told that "they are not here ....come 2morow....u get lost now".....as i heard the word "get lost"..i was happy.....some how both of us managed to pull him outside the campus.....and told him that "we are happy"......2 be frank my wish was fulfilled....though i was praying very hardly fore some minutes.....then he asked if we had some wish again.....by this time it was 1 am midnight...we went to our room......opened the nxt bottle.......2 be frank...dont know how i slept....i lost my conscious.....the nxt day we woke up by 10...half an hour have finished....."exam"...some how...i washed my face...brushed my teeth ..had a quick visit to the bathroom....changed my clothes...ran to the college...but i was late....the principle asked,..."why you were late??...I told....sir my room mate fell in bathroom...so i went to hospital",...sir plzz give me a chance.....but he told.....'U write it next time...that will be better..."...I begged...but I couldn't make up his mind......when i got the questions...I found that I could answer those questions easily.....but what to do....bitter experiences makes life...right..??......

Any way thatz how i wrote my first semester law examz....hope i can be a Gud Criminal Lawyer just because I did all these things..he he :-) .......

I don't have any worries or tensions now coz I haven't studied any thing.. so let me make some worries.....I am going to study my lessons....this time I am not ready for a compromise...I shall....at any cost......!!!!

Nothing is there in aTitle....

well.....Sitting in my room.....I thought of writing a blog simply because....I lost a day....In fact I loses each and every day in my life coz each day happens without any improptou....Every night before going to sleep I swears....From tomorrow morning every nasty thing should go in its way...but for hell's sake nothing happens right....some how I want to do many things....but ............what ever it be...lets talk about ..........I gets up by 7:30...though my train leaves the station by 7:15...somehow manages to get up...lazy.....thinks about the day.....ohhhh boring...should i go or not.....mm..now talking about the day.....brushes the teeth....watching tv...U will be wondering what this idiot says....of course dude....thatz a part of my life......takes some food......takes a quick bath.....find some books....In fact most of the time I finds a book under my bed.......take some money..well my father gives that....In fact it is his right to give me money each day.....runs to the bus stand.....catch a bus.......jump in the signal......and a long run to the railway station...by this time the train must have started with its horn......In fact I am an expert in getting into running trains.........well one of my friend who will be reading this...will be thinking.......this idiot told me all these things like a story to me in the morning....In fact I Kills that poor girl each and every day by speaking all types of rubbish stories that is happening in my life......well cheerzzz machu for being that special friend....any way she some how manages to give me sensible solutions for my insane questions.....now talking about gud girl friendz......I have only limited girl friendz....well they are my valuable assets any way.......now talking about the train....I usually finds my friends in my train.....then what happens next is complete freak out.......ulllaaaa laaaaa...koooooooiiiiiiii........giving taataaa to small children in the slum near the railway station is my main hobby...then comes college junction....just peeping through the door to find some chicks....I know....but I never finds any one.......then comes the hot discussions....atlast some how I manages to reach trivandrum by 10:10 ...the first hour must have finished and the second hour must have started......now running to catch a bus to my college.....some how i reaches my college by 10:30.....by this time i will be hungry......"well the phne is ringing...let me take it"..yup I am back.........dentist wants to see me urgently.....well you will be wondering for what....some clip is being put in my teeth to make it a level......in fact it has been 2 months since i have seen him.....


U know I am busy man most of the time..I pretends to be busy most of the time though I am not....he he....well today evening I should go..."..mm...now lets come back to our old topic......hungry...by that time.....my stomach if it had a brain must have thought......"U stupid why are you not giving me some food ??"..".My dear stomach....i also loves having some tasty cuisine.....but you know stomach..I have been travelling all the time"...now talking about the break fast I enters devaki restaurant by 10:30....In fact it is a small shop.....unnoticed......u can get tasty "steam cake".....well phone ringing again..........In fact that is my dearest chum calling.........well he is drunk now.....In the morning there was a small issue.....well they have took the revenge any way ....... now celebrationz on the go....he called me to
say a "sorry "and a "missing u "......he told this to me...."da *****.......ninne manaporvam vilikathirunatha...nee vannal ennike manasamathanamayitte fit aavan pattila.....If i was there he should not hve drunk beyond a limit....any way alcoholic consumption is injurious to health...now talking about steam cake.....there are many stories related to steam cake......I still remembers my old 5th standard.....auriel master ...my english teacher cleared my doubts of steam cake...and "kanji"...rice soup....any way lets not go into the details...that I will blog later....I guess.......I used to hate steam cake..........but after having steam cake,kadala,and papadam from devaki......yummmyyyyy........I am in love with you devaki...In fact davaki have lots of boy friendz......he he....I am also one of them......but the problem is that you have to wait a lot for that yummy dish...coz the steam plates in devaki is always busy.......by this time I must have losed my second hour also....but some times i gets it...it depends on devaki......now after having food from devaki....I walks into the gr8 campus.....


I have to walk some distance to reach my campus..In fact I loves it....It can be a yearning any way.....the time must be 11:10 now......on the left side of campus block there are some pipes .....where the piper boys sit.....piper boys includes boys from each class...hans,shambhu,pan paraag,wills,gold,...all type of related stuffs are shared there...U can also get some hot discussions on hot chicks,interesting current updates etc...all type of fun happens there......in fact it is a pakka lawyer's corner........ some how..... I quit smoking....I used to......but now I don't........rarely with alcohol...thatz it...."dejavu"...that have happened now.....i have seen the same scene in my dream.......like blogging this stuff.....dejavu.....i guess it happens with every one.....in fact it is a para-psychological feeling........now I am not going to speak about it with my limited knowledge...though i does this trick........most of the times...bla bla bla...atlast my oponent have to accept my point....muhahhaaaaa.........Ohhh....we have diverted from the subject..........