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Love & Pain

2011-12-28T12:21:00.001+05:30

Will u believe if I say I miss You ! It still happens !Your absence is like a thorn in My flesh...the thorn hurts me every moment, but I enjoys that pain coz I dont want to miss it ! Missing it is like Missing U.....luv You !

Thoughtful Thoughts :)

2011-11-01T18:38:00.003+05:30

Hi Friendz...This is a Collection of My thoughts Which I had in different Junctures of My life.....Here I am Sharing it....Hope You'll get a Piece to think over....

1) I am a warrior fighting for My kingdom called life and to protect My subjects called relations !

2) Sometimes I am ruled by emotions while sometimes I am ruled by wisdom...But I want the later to happen only with strangers just coz I love to be genuine with My loved ones !

3) Many questions remains unanswered in life....Its not just coz we don't have the answers for it....but because we are in search for the perfect answers !

4) When life Matters.....Live Your Own Way....Talk Your Own Words and Share Your Own Views.....:-)

5) Different people know Me in different ways.....But only some know Me in every way !:)

6) You can see different type of people around You and I am one among them !

7) When silence speaks, words hush just to know the depth inside the hearts...:)

8) As the needle in the clock moves on,as the dates in the calendar becomes history,surroundings changes,people changes,relationships changes !!

9) Never live to learn but learn to live..!!:-)

10) Some questions always remain unanswered and some stories always remain untold !

11) For some I am nothing....For some I am something and for some I am everything :)

12) A word a day can keep the dictionary away !

13) We all are plants growing into Trees to give Fruits and Shade to Many....!

14) If You have a desire to change then change to desire ! :)

15) Rejuvenation, Renaissance and Renovation for the body, mind and soul....!

16) I see lunatics every where and I realized that I am also a lunatic...Some things are always strange like Yourself !!!

17) I respect a women but never a feminist !

18) Lake shore ....Dazzling water....clear sky...numerous stars....Moon....best friend....serious talks.....life....:)

19) Life never lets You to live the way You want, instead it makes it the way You are !!

20) We are forced to pretend as something before the society we live in for existence, but within the inner heart most of us know that we are nothing !!!

21) Listening to the wind, voices in My head, I felt I stand no where !

22) Being diplomatic doesn't mean that You have to compromise with everyone for everything !

23) When You win fame, its natural that You will win enemies also...!!!

24) For some I am Nothing....For some I am Something....For Some I am Everything.....

25) When People smile at You it doesn't mean that they are sincere with You !

26) To play the game You need to know the game and to know the game you need to play the game....!!!

27) Analysing...Assessing...Administrating....

28) There is a chemistry which is to be maintained in the correct proposition at the correct time in all relations...!!!

29) Power is useless untill its used...!!!

30) Some people are to be studied....Some are to be Ignored....While Some are to be Copied....!:-)

Unemployment- A Blessing :)

2011-05-20T14:22:00.002+05:30

Unemployment can be considered as an opportunity rather than a situation ,were an individual can analyze the past,live the present and can think,plan and act for a better future !!!

10/10/2010

2010-10-10T21:56:00.001+05:30

10/10/2010 ...Visit this Place for an Exciting Post..!!

Random Mentations......

2010-08-04T23:04:00.015+05:30

Being in My room on a lazy monday morning....I thought of writing up something...It was a sunny day.....I was happy inside My den.....looking at the nature....thinking....wondering......So If You ask me what I was thinking about.....I have no answer.....Just because there are so many voices in My head....All are speaking....and to some.... at times I do listen......Life is still on the move...Every dawn have a different story to tell......Every day starts with hope......Some gets fulfilled...while some don't...but still we have the same hope the very next day.......

Life itself is a puzzle....Some makes it up right.....While some don't.....Many are still in search for the missing part......So from all these the whole human race can be divided into three.....Those who made the puzzle right....those who failed and those who are in search for the missing part.....Most of Us belongs to the third group i:e those who are in search for the missing part.....What is Missing in our Life.....From My point of View.....Some times We have everything....but sometimes We don't have any thing......

Now What is Missing.....The answer is yet to be found......Reading books or Meeting People won't give You the answer for these questions....For Finding the answer You should live Life......At a point of Life...You will get the answer....The answer Why You are born...?..Why You are living..?......At that Point of time never be disappointed for what you are then because you are a warrior.....A warrior who have fought so many wars....A warrior who have won many wars......Life is not always sweet....Life is also bitter.....You can win life if You can find sweetness from that bitterness......Any way thatz not that easy....Mind Matters for that...Be strong in Mind whatever happens....Face challenges...It is not necessary that every time You will win...But Never give Up.....The Ultimate Win will be Your's......

Live Life....Be Strong....Its Your Life.....Cheerzzzz....!!

Reflections of Life....

2010-07-12T19:24:00.003+05:30

1)"When life treats You well "LOVE" life....When life treats You bad "LIVE" life "

2) "Whether it be sun or snow or rain life has to move on ....So live on..."

3) "Every dawn have a different story to tell ....so listen...think and act....."

4) "Sometimes life is a fancy dress competition in which We plays the unexpected roles at unexpected times in front of unexpected people..."!

5) "When fair plays go wrong....go wrong in the fairest way.."

6)"When loneliness crept My world ....I found felicity in My thoughts.....I am an Idealist...."!!!

7) "Sometimes a good sleep is the best intoxicant.."

8) "I give respect and take respect...but If a day comes when I lose respect for You or when You lose respect for Me....You will be ignored forever... !!! Who ever You are...How ever We where..."

9)"Unexpected outcomes always results in worries..."

10)"Mistakes of life helps You to live better later.."

11) "A Family can be considered as a machine and the members of it are its parts.If any part goes wrong the whole machine will end up in trouble...."

12)"Never drink and drive.....Intoxication is only for hours....after that You have to live..."

13) "What You own is not what You Earn...."

14) "Love is like a kite.....the higher You fly....the higher the risk.....So hold the thread tight....."

16) "I am still a small child astonishing at the rain..."

17)The only thing that can make You slap Your face is a Mosquito :-)

18) "Nothing hurts like a true friend's betrayal....."

19)"A clever man will express his thoughts.....but never in the wrong place....at...the wrong time...."

20) "When You are Intoxicated You are the master on road....but...when intoxication leaves You never be the slave on the bed.."

21)"When a fille starts ruling Your mind and relations........remember.....You are ruining Yourself....."

22)"Words are useless until it does some work...."

23)"I live in a world where Men have wings and Women have feathers....Lets Fly.."

24)"Different Days...Different Roles.....Different People..."

25) "If You can make some innovative ideas from laziness then You are a Intellect..."

26) "If fidelity is a crime...then call Me a criminal....."

27) "From Imperfections to Perfections.....From Despair to Hope......From Darkness to Light......I am Living...."

Reflections of Life......Do think over the Quotes......:-)

Cheeerzzzz... :-)

Devadasi..

2010-05-15T00:33:00.003+05:30

Well,Folks....I am back ...guess for the last two months I was Much interested in making Quotes...But this time I'm here to tell You a Bit Different Yet an Interesting story......As the name indicates I am going to narrate something about a "Women"......A women have lot of roles to play in the society...A women can be a gud friend,an affectionate sister,a beloved Mother,Caring Wife, Naughty Love .....Apart from all this women play Many Important Roles in the society.....Now Coming back to the story....

This story happened 1 week back when I was on a Journey in Kannur Express from Trivandrum to Kollam......I was working in one Of My Friend's Office as Office staff.....On this day I some how managed to quit office by 7:30 evening....The train was scheduled at 8:45...I reached railway station by 8"o clock......I had to spare 45 minutes.....So I was in search for ways for sparing the time....I decided to watch people.....All were busy....Suddenly My eyes Struck a women who was sitting on the floor.......I felt some speciality in her...I didn't know what it was......I started watching her from the window of the general compartment.....The first thing that struck My Mind When I watched her carefully was the devadasis....The same old devadasis.....Years back I have read a book on devadasis......She seemed like a devadasi...."The devadasi who dedicates her life for the devi....I remember very clearly that devadasis were later converted into prostitutes.......So Many things were going through My Mind....I was in the world of devadasis by this time...,...

To be Frank I should say that the heroin of this story took me to the world of devadasis....As time passed the Compartment was filled with people.....It was 8:40 .........Suddenly I was awaken from My Thoughts by a old women....She asked some space to sit.....I told her to sit there.......I went to the door side.......This time I saw the "Women" sitting there on the floor...But now at the side of the bathroom....in the compartment....

The Compartment was crowded...but Some How I was Happy with My Space at the Door......The Train started its Journey.......I was enjoying the strong breeze from the door side.....After some time I felt bored....This time My eyes Struck at that Lady again.......She had some specialities..I don't know what it is....She was in her thirty's.....She had lot of bangles in her hand....Bangles of different colours from wrist to shoulder.....She was wearing a saree which had lot of designs.......She was Beautiful....but Dirt made her beauty fading......She had nose rings ,long ear rings.....She was having some necklaces in her head.........I was staring at her......In fact I was thinking.......But after sometime I saw her covering her head with that saree......Seeing Me staring at her...She smiled at Me and asked Me something........But I didn't understand any thing.....I smiled as Reply.....She Giggled this time......

I wondered "where is she coming from..??"...."Where is she going..??"....."How she Lives..??"...Some where some One will be waiting for her........She will be having Parents,Siblings..sometimes a husband and children.....How can she waste her life like this.......Some times She Must be travelling for some Reason........So Many things Flashed through My Mind....I felt Concerned for her........

I didn't Knew Why I was Much attached to a stranger like that .......I felt astonished.....An over whelming emotion of Joy and at the same time despair......

It was getting cold...the train was nearing My station....I saw her getting ready to lie on the floor......She wanted to sleep some how.....She never cared the Crowded Compartment or the Staring People.......I saw Most of the People in that Cabin Looking at her......She lay on the floor......Her legs were out...She was getting cold......She Pulled her legs and hands into her saree......Yet the cold wind played its tricks again.......

People started Moving as the train was nearing the station....She was on the way....Some of them shouted at her.......She never minded them....She was happy inside her saree.....

The train reached Kollam Station.......As I was getting out of the train....I saw her looking at Me .......She Smiled at me in Despair.....I tried to Smile.....But...........

Random 5 ....

2010-04-07T09:23:00.005+05:30

1) Time Betrays No One If You Trust It...!!!

2) When things Goes Complicated Keep Silence ....!!!

3) If You are in a Relationship for Existence then You are in the Wrong Track...Love and Be Loved for No Reason...!!!

4) When Loneliness Crept My World I found Felicity in My Thoughts....I am an Idealist...!!!

5) It do hurt at times....but.."facts" are to be accepted ..coz..."realities" are always realities".....Oh God...Bless every one Amen...!!!

Eyes,Soul and Reality .......

2010-03-03T08:22:00.006+05:30

A Morning Intellection.....

"Close Your Eyes and Feel the Warmth of Your Soul.......Open Your Eyes and Feel the Tenderness of Reality....."

Happy Thinking....Happy Living....:-)

Random Thought ......

2010-02-24T12:57:00.002+05:30

"Fear of Outcomes will Reflect in Your Activities....... So Fear Less and Do More....."

A Piece to think over....Keep Thinking... :-)

Incompleted Mentations

2010-02-21T14:43:00.009+05:30

Well People...It is 6 am...I was waked up by some forces....don’t know what it is....It was cold....I could hear the bells of the church and sirens nearby......The bell and the siren was saying that it was 6 am.......A day starts here for all.......A day of hope...A day of Mysteries..A day of Suspense.......I wanted to say something....

Was it Love...I don’t know......It was fog outside......I was happy inside My Blanket.......I could hear the birds singing.....Another day break......Every Morning and Every Night has its Own Stories to say...May be the Stories will be different with different people........

The dawn is the time when a new life gets evolved....the whole day is its life...and By evening when the sun sets........ it dies.....It is the witness for the whole thing.......It can be compared to life.......We all are only Witnesses of Life.......

Fog was Covering Me........I always loved it.......I loved watching it......being with it.........I could hear the shrilling sound of the Train.....In the morning time only.....You can hear it that clearly......Dew Drops were still hanging on to leaves....as if....it will fall any moment........

How many of you enjoy......the dawn and the dusk.....It is a wonderful feeling......To enjoy it with its full emotion you need to be in a beach....with the Waves....Sea was always My Best Friend......I still remember My gud old days......bunking classes.....Cycling to the Sea Shore.....I always loved watching it......I feared the Sea.....So I never intended to play with it.....I just loved watching the sea playing with the shore.......I laughed...confessed...... and ........wept with the sea.....

Do any one know who will win in that Game.....No one knows the ultimate answer....As the nature and the life itself is a book of questions...the only thing that man knows is clues about them...To get the complete answer is a foolish hope........

I could now see the nature more clearly......Light is coming from infinity.......the divine light......

Every one always talks about Night......Can any One enjoy the true beauty of darkness...I should say that darkness has got its own beauty.......the only thing is that You need a Mind to enjoy it......

Life always gives You a Twist......You can’t expect it to be the way You wanted........The only thing You can do is Pray.....Prayers will calm your mind.......Your Mind can make most of the things right.......Some times Your Mind decides the outcome of what You do.......Its a fact and No one can argue upon that.......

I always wondered.......Where Did I Go Wrong ?...Its a Question that every one should ask to their own soul......I know No one is perfect.....So this Question has got its own importance.......Now coming back,......I Exactly know the place....where...I went wrong....But to Clear that wrong ...I should wait........I need to live My life once again...from the Place where I went wrong........I need to find good friends.......need to have good relations......but considering the last few years...its a stripped Fact that I didn't find good friends and relations.....Every thing was for existence........as for every one "there"...Existence matters.........

To be Continued.........like life..............

Thoughtful Thoughts......

2010-02-10T17:02:00.000+05:30

Hi Friendz...This is a Collection of My thoughts Which I had in the Different Junctures Last Year....I found these in My twitter......Here I am Sharing it....Hope You'll get a Piece to think over....

1) "Like nature Life also have the Drought of Happiness and Flood of Worries...Face it......."

2) "When You are Ruled by Emotions...Nothing Comes in Your Way......"

3) "Concepts and Realities are Like the two Poles of a Magnet....They Attract Each Other........"

4) "Attitude changes with time...So never let your attitude determine your relations.."

5) "To Paint Your Life You Need The Colors called "Friends"and the Brush Called "Love"...So Start Painting Your Life Now...Make It Beautiful....."

6) "A Girl or Alcohol Can be Your Best Friend....but...If Not used Properly they Can Be Your Worst Enemies..."

7) " If You have Good Workers You will not Know What Worries are.....but...If You have Bad Workers,You will have only Worries all the time...."

8) "No resolutions to make.....as there is no meaning in making any resolution.....Its up to You....Change it when You think its time to change....But Beware....Don't be too late....."

9) " Taking a Long walk through a Narrow Village Road on a Cool Evening can fetch You some thoughts which can be treasured for a life time...."

10) "If You Can Have a Quarter of Rum and Some Pieces of Raw Meat,early in the Morning,then You are Strong Enough to Rule This World".......'Mind Matters'

11) "Time will help You to differentiate between Your Friends and Acquaintances....So Wait and See...Anticipations will not go right always "

12) " I cannot become You and You Cannot become Me....But another Person can become Me and You...."

13) "I live in Fantasies....Just Coz I Love Thinking....."

14) "I sing a Song where all have their own Instruments to Play....."My Life"....."

15) "I can't make a revolution...but....I Believe I can make changes....."

16) "In the Sea Called Life I am Sailing with the Boat Called Time...."

17) "I am now travelling through a desert.....and...I am in search for an Oasis and a Camel...!!!"

18) "Shoot Me in My Forehead but don't Stab Me from the back...!!!"

19) "Am I too pure in this Dirty World.?"

20) "I Walk in My Own Style....I Speak My Own Words.....I think in My Own Way......Some Call it Attitude......While Some Don't Care........Any Way I am Me and You are You......"

21) "Let the Rain Sing....Let the Nature Dance.....Let the Mind be Elated..."

22)"Like the Clouds....Like the Rain....Like the Waves..I am also Flying,Singing and Dancing...."

23) "Beyond Imaginations...Beyond Creations......Beyond Powers....there is a World...A World Of Eternity.....Let her Rest in Peace...."

Please think over the Quotes....The Real Meaning of the Words can be Understood only By Thinking....

"Happy Thinking :-)"

Intoxicated Evening...

2009-11-08T11:13:00.018+05:30

It was Raining .... I decided to be Out.....Finished the Last Drop of Alcohol......Some One Called me from My Back With an Umbrella....But Later Only I realised that It was Just an Illusion........I stepped out.....It was Murky Outside....The Roaring Sound of Wind and the Splashing Rain Played its Trick....Any Way I enjoyed that......

Started Walking Without the Destination......When I Started the Only Aim was to Enjoy the Rain......Mind was dancing with the Rain.........Just Managed to get two Polythene Bags......Used one to Cover My head and used the other to protect My Wallet and Mobile.......after walking some distance through that narrow road....I turned My eyes into My Watch.......Through the Foggy glass of the watch.....I found the time....My Time...It was 4 Pm......By this time I was Completely Wet......My Friend called Intoxication was getting ready to leave me......Now I have a new Friend called Rain.....I was never alone....My thoughts was always My best Friend....whatever it be....Where ever it be......

The next aim was to Catch the Train .....I started running......I splashed water.....I enjoyed that......the Feeling of elation again......Managed to get into a Bus........Opened My Polythene Bag......took some bucks....No one was daring at me except a small child.......I just gave a blinking smile....but he was astonished to see a man completely wet in that semi-wet bus.....he was happy and safe in his mother's lap......once I also must have passed the same condition.......

I was Enjoying the Wet Atmosphere of the City through the Misty glass of the Bus......But I Couldn't enjoy those scenes.......I started running again........

Wet Street........I never Minded the rain.....Just enjoyed it.......As I ran to the Railway Station I was Laughing in between.....Some how Managed to get into the railway station......took ticket with the Currency from My Wallet....For God's sake it was not wet.....

Got into the train.......I didn't sit...I managed to be near the Door....It was raining hard......I was longing for such a Journey since the last Rain....Train attained speed gradually.......Rain drops plashed My monocle......I had to wipe My Monocles in between.....As the Wind blew harder I was Shivering....Some how I wanted to enjoy the Journey with Rain....I was enjoying the Scenes Outside.....In between I Noticed some people Staring at me.....Some where even teasing me.......but...I never Cared.......I was felicitous enough to enjoy all this.......

The Scenes outside was soothing to both the Mind and Eyes.......Happy Streams.....Pullulating Birds.....cernuous trees.....quaggy paddy fields......Children Coming after school with Umbrellas........Some where even walking with banana leaf on their head which You can see only in a country like India.......After some time I realised that I can't stand there any more as I was Shivering harder....I found My seat.....As soon as I sat I was attacked by forty winks.....I didn't knew as time passed......In between My phone ringed....I was waked up from My Cat Sleep.....I looked through the window....I was nearing My station......

I reached My station.....By this time I got a New Friend....I was Hungry .....I wanted something to eat....After effect of alcohol......By this time the Rain started its Dance again.....It wanted me to dance with it....I decided to get wet again......Just walked out of the station in the rain....this time no elation...the only aim was to feed My stomach.......I found a small eat out.....

It was a small shop with four wheels.....An old women was making food.....Her face told her story and sufferings......A sheet was attached to the caravon as a shelter from rain........I got inside the shelter.....rubbed my head with My kerchief...wiped My Monacles........

The Old Women asked....."Oh My Boy.....Why are You Wet....You Should take Care.." ..I smiled at her....But She was not that Happy with My Peckish Smile......She gave Me Some "Doshas" to eat....I started eating it avariciously......By this time I found that the tent was leaking.....My Dosha was also wet with those drops of water....But I didn't complain.....I finished it......I was happy with what she gave me.......

Some how Managed to get an Auto Rickshaw.......Reached home......As I reached home.....'Amma' was waiting for me.......took a bath....straight to the kitchen to have her delicious cuisines.......As I saw that I was Hungry Again.... :-)

This Post was Once deleted accidently From the Blogger Platform ...Completed after 2 months from the date it was deleted......

Village Scenes.....

2009-10-02T10:14:00.015+05:30

" Dedicating this to My Grand Mother Who left Me on the 22nd of September......I know that You will be watching Me from the Sky as a Star....as Once You have told Me.....The Stars that are Twinkling at You are Your Dear One's......Love You "Amooma"...!!! "

Well People....After a long Interval I am back......Had some hectic days......Now I am free....Its murky out.....As I looked out My Mind travelled to some where else.....I was thinking about Gandhiji....as today is Gandhi Jayanthi.....that thought took me to Villages....as Once he said....Go back to Villages ...right..??

Now Going back to villages.....I basically belong to a village.....A place where I see green every where....A place where the nature Plays the Music for My Song.....A place where I see People Pure at heart...A place where the Sun,Sky and the Dew provides me with light, shade and drops of happiness........

Taking a long walk through a village road can be much interesting......It takes you to ecstasy...but to enjoy all these You need a gud mind....A mind pure at heart....A mind which can talk to the singing birds,the whistling wind and the nodding plants.......How many of You have this...??

The Kind of atmosphere that You can get from a village is entirely different from that of a City...If you need Serenity you need to be there........Taking a Long dive into the tittering river....a pleasant swim......splashing the water into the face of your friend and a long run to Your home through the paddy field in a wet condition.....suddenly...You slips into the paddy field.....just giggling at your friend..alas...its clay,.......

Throwing Stones at the Mango Tree aiming at the Ripe Ones....but Most of the time You gets the Small Sour Mangoes.....Some how Manages to eat it with the Salt and Chilly Powder that you have already treasured from the kitchen.......

After having that only You realises that you are red hot and tears are coming from your eyes.......to get away from this condition...you starts throwing stones again....at last prays to the wind.......and.....

Finally....You decides to get into the tree to get those ripe ones........some how you manages to be in the top of the tree...suddenly you realises that the tree was full of ants.....you some how plucks some ......jumps out of the tree from the lowest branch....by this time your body will be covered with ants.......manages to laugh with others .....though you were chafed and annoyed by the ants.....Am I missing all these..???

Smiling at that Innocent Girl...nearby with a Naughty Look...with the Expectation that She May smile back.....but here... She Runs away from You....and then Hiding some where...Just to watch whether You are Looking at her...........

Having that Yummy Dishes that were made from the Crops from your field....the kind of taste that touches your taste buds.......a long nap under the bamboo tree.......

Running behind those hens to get them into their hidey-hole......so that they will be secure till next morning.......fetching water from the well......to take a cool bath.......

A long run to the River side.....to say Wishes to the setting sun....Collecting some hay.......Feeding those cattles......with some serious talks with them......

A short prayer at the end of the day with that respect and dignity....that God deserves......

Astounding at the stars ...just to see whether they have formed any shapes.......smiling at them as they twinkles at me.......

Being there with the Grand Mother to study some Lessons and to hear some Tales......as they are unique in its character......having dinner with some talks about the day...and a safe and happy sleep on the mat next to her bed..........

Am I missing all these..???....

Yes I do.........I am Missing each and every thing........As time plays its role......these memories are fading away from My mind......I can only watch them.......weeping at them.....like a small child who screams at his father to get the Moon........

"Beyond Powers.......Beyond Imaginations......Beyond Creativity...there is a World....a World Of Eternity.....Let her Rest In Peace....!!! "

Incompleted Inclinations....

2009-08-10T22:32:00.004+05:30

Well.....After a Month I am back....but this time no Idea....Its a Cool evening....the fan is plying in its full speed and I am shivering.....though I was enjoying this condition smirking at the darkness outside......

Just stepped out of My room into the balcony to see the one whom I always wanted to see...Any way its not the girl in the next door..he he...Its the Moon......It always smiled at me from the time I was looking at it....What should I call Moon....?? Him or Her....I guess its better to call the Moon "Him"....The small stars surrounded the Moon as if they were Protecting the moon .....Any way the Moon is a Kingpin....he has lot of friendz na....?....Stars,Planets,Shooting Stars,Sky......

I felt like lying there in the terrace.....but its damn cold...any way I am not going to care......I guess not every one can do this......You need to be lucky enough to be in this state of Euphoric....any way I am lucky......I looked at the stars...they all are winking at me....One day I'll also be a star......winking at My dearest Ones.....The Moon was smiling at me.....I was at the peak of elation this time......there goes a shooting star....I guess the shooting stars will be messengers of the stars and the Moon...Is the Moon in love with the stars. ??

The Sun Must be sleeping now after it heavy work.......Sun is too bold and the Moon gives you aplomb.....Have you ever wondered why you are assailed when You are under the hot Sun....? .....The sun is making you strong enough to face challenges in life.....as Life is full of Struggles and Challenges......

Life is full of Questions and Answers...No one can answer all the Questions......Incompleted answers makes life....Life loves You coz You loves life..... You can never expect love by abnegating love....I guess its true with life also......

I am getting embraced by My princess now......I guess I am safe in her hands....She provides me with Care....after the hectic day.....She refreshes me......In fact no one can live without her.....Let me love her now..... :-)

A Morning Dream....

2009-06-28T20:56:00.006+05:30

Well...Friends...I am here today with some themes...But don't know how to present it.....I believe I am a still a small child in the world of blogs......Last night I was much tired...I had to skip My dinner.....I was having cold..I guess......as there is nothing unusual for me getting cold this season....Its raining hard here in Kerala......

Its very intersting to be in your den watching the rain with a cup of coffee or tea in your hand.....but this time I had to find my place inside My blanket astounding at the rain...The rain was singing loud this time...I was watching it through my window lying there in My bed....Droplets of water touched my face in between......."blessed"

I don't know how I slept in between...It was damn cold outside and damn hot inside my body...It can be compared to the struggle between the individual and the society in life......

Didn't knew how I slept....I was conquered by sleep in between......The Princess of sleep called Dreamz was waiting for me.....this time I was taken to a world by the Princess....For me Everything seemed to be strange.......A place which seemed like heaven...later only I realised that it was the paradise called heaven....

It seemed as if some one was showing me light...I walked through the direction of the light......Suddenly the light ceased...I felt as If some one was holding me back.....It was the king of evil..the satan.....

It was holding me back......It prompted me to commit sins.....But suddenly the light came again and started me to show the way....I was in between the two....I tried to pull my hand from the evil...but it was holding me tight.....I tried and tried.....but I failed......

Suddenly the light came closer to me......the light helped me to stay serene in the midst of turbulence......The evil was burned in the gloriole.......I was absorbed by the light.....and was placed as a star there......I was given My halo.......

Suddenly the light turned into a deity....I was asked to go back to earth and to do What it did to me when I was in the hands of the satan.......

I was also given the occult power......Suddenly a shooting star came......It took me back to earth.....It landed on the sea.......

Suddenly I felt that I am out of My bed.......Ohhh God....Everything Was a Dream....and I was Completely alright......

Friends and Enemies..!!!

2009-06-24T11:23:00.007+05:30

Well,Friendz ..This is a Random thought which came to My mind during a Walk...I guess Its true with Each One of Us...

"If You Have Time to Listen....then You will Have More Friendz.... If You have only time to Speak....then You will have more Enemies...!!!"

From Walk to Death...!!!

2009-06-23T14:47:00.022+05:30

Well....Friendzz....I am back....Today I have lot of things to say to You people....In fact today morning My mind was filled up with lots of thoughts and I am here to share it with You....don't know whether I can express it the way I wanted....but one thing I can assure....You won't get bored....

Most of My thoughts happens in the morning with My breakfast....U'll be thinking how. ??.. U know the best time to have better refreshing thoughts is morning...just coz your mind is brisk.......Well its a Fact that it takes around 1-2 hours to finish My breakfast...this is how it happens.....The Television will be on with some music channels and I'll be in front of that with my breakfast......Different thoughts comes in my mind as I Skips through different Music channels....I'll be dancing,eating and some times even Acting.....but this is not possible if my father is there in den........

Well.....How many of You loves Walking.....Of course I loves walking.....but definitely not in the afternoon....I loves taking a long walk in the evening......It refreshes your mind.......It gives you energy.....You can have Innovative thoughts with your walk.....An Innovative thought can be the Best Pal for the Walk......Earlier I used to walk everyday.....Most of the times I starts from my den by 6 pm...I guess its the best time to do it......just extends My walks through pocket roads...coz these type of roads will be traffic free..... and My walk ends in the bridge which is 1 km away from my home......

U know being in a bridge in the evening is fabulous...Its like being in a heaven....You can see the sun set.....I guess the sun will be tired after its work..... the birds will be flying to their nests making different sounds....I guess they will be singing. ....because they are going back to their nests. Their Young ones Will be waiting for them....the clouds will be moving as if some one is following them....well...I don't mind grinning at them upon the thought that they will consider me the next time when I am under the hot sun ....the sky in the west will be red in colour...which itself resembles the warning to all humans for all the sins they have committed that day......these live scenarios brisks your senses and strong breeze calms down your mind which can fetch you ataraxis.......

I have even thought.....If someone was lying on My shoulders when I was there........So I have decided..."Better that Girl be My bride than being My Love"....I am not ready to dawdle any more......So U'll be thinking whether I am a Flirt ???.....to be frank Definitely not...!!!...but Once I loved a girl.....She was my friend....but later only I realized that I am in love with her and this relation is not for good...just Coz I was living in such an orthodox society....I won't be able to marry her....So we Split Up on a Mutual Understanding ....."Friendship often ends in love but love in Friendship never"...these words by Charles Caleb Colton is true .....I realized it.....

Now talking about Death...I have always wondered who will check My orkut account and My mails When I am dead......Does My soul can do it..??? Is there a life after death......I am still in search for an answer.....But any way I haven't planned of dying soon....Mind it.. :-)

Mixture of Complicated Thoughts.....!!!

2009-06-15T00:53:00.005+05:30

Well....Here I am.....back in My Den...right in front of My lappy....the time being 1:00 am....pheww...have to leave the den by 6 tomorrow...I guess... I have hectic dayz a head....I can't even think of it.....I don't know how hard some days are....Long walks under the hot Sun....restless travellings.....and the only thing you find a comfort atlast is a sleep......A nice pleasant sleep after a cool bath....hmmm....I guess thatz a relief after a hectic day.....but If You can't sleep.......Sighh.....There is no need of a sleeping pill......Just take a book....Hmm...let it be a stuff that you don't like.....try to read.....concentrate more on that book when you are getting bored......I assure...Its a Fact that You will fall into the squishy hands of sleep......Beautiful stars will accompany you....the moon itself will look after you....with its cute smile........the cool sky will provide you with shelter .....and the cool breeze will give you comfort.....

U can have a cool dive into the deep sea of sleep....U can get pebbles called happiness......Beautiful scenes called Dreamz and of course .....Energy......

Now talking about energy...Do You lose Your energy If some one knocks U down....If the answer is Yes......then U need to change .....just coz....U can never live with this attitude.....Don't ever mind what others think of You or Speak of You...Itz ur life and you are living it....So live it.....live like a king......be your own king and make your own realms....but be careful never get into other kingdoms...or try to conquer other realms.....Why should we hurt others..???

Never allow Your attitude to determine your relations...just coz attitudes changes with time...... It will be difficult for you get back a broken relationship.....So never ever mix your attitude with your relations.....Relations....Its a topic I have blogged once.....

Relations ....its a need of the hour.....Its not necessary that all people will be with you all the time......We makes new relations...we maintain relations.....we loses relations.....but at times it hurts a lot when U lose a relation....But mind it.....Changes make life....

How can a person live if there are no changes...???...Its the law of nature that there should be changes......

But for My friendz......
plz keep this pledge....

"Friendz we are.....Friendz we will be.....Friendz we should be..." !!!

The Subtle Song..!!!

2009-06-07T12:11:00.014+05:30

It was raining hard outside....I was locked in my room by my laziness...My lappy accompanied me with that laziness.....Wind was in its full fledge....Big trees were dancing like never before......the tiny plants seemed as if they were dancing in the rain...Flowers in my garden nodded which itself expressed their joy..... I could see the water dancing in my balcony.....My windows were touched up with thick layers of water.....I moved towards it...just to give an unexpressible feeling to my eyes and mind......

My Mind was also travelling somewhere else.......As it rained harder....My vision started fading....In fact my window was bleary with mist...I wiped it with my hand.....But it was getting blurred and blurred..... I was in a paradise.....I felt the rhythm of my heart .....It was dancing like a peacock......I was singing.....the music of rain gave me the orchestra......the wind gave me the treble and the thunder gave me the bass.....The elusive song was sung for hours.....I was lost in it.....I was enjoying my subtle mind.....

Suddenly I was awaked from this state of mind by a thunder.....which itself formed the bass for my song.......I was nettled.....how could the bass for my song make me annoying..??...I couldn't find an answer.....I didn't curse it....coz I know its a necessary that I should awake from my subtle mind....afterall I am a simple human being......
By this time.....everything seemed to be calm....but the atmosphere was murky......the nature itself was getting ready for the next song.....and I waited for it........the notional song.....sung by me and my nature......let it rain and rain...!!!

I Adore......I Admire....I Respect.....

2009-05-19T23:35:00.008+05:30

Well, as Usual I am here...but I have a stuff in mind..but no idea about presenting it to you people....U'll be thinking what I am going to blurt....Yeah I'll be going to scrap on "I Adore....I Admire....I Respect"...well,obviously a question will come to your mind Whom I adore,I admire and Respect...Well...I haven't found that answer...Let's find it out...!!!

"My Mom"...well that makes a part of it..well,this is a much discussed topic...but I have my own things to say.....My mom.....Well, definitely a person whom I adores,admires and respects more than any one else in this world.....A mom should be every one's role model just coz she teached you to be what you are....She moulded you in the way you are now.....You can never say what all things your mom did to make what you are now......

She have Suffered,She was Patient,She Forgived,She Cared,She Loved, She invigorated you when you were ill,She renovated you when you were in despair, She scolded you when you were wrong, She became your friend when you were lonely,She teached you lessons etc etc etc ..Every one studies their first lessons from their mother.......I still remembers my gud old school days.....I should thank my mother...She teached me to write,read and to recite.... I am here now just coz she did that....thanks mom... :-)

During my school days My mom used to teach me my lessons in the evening....Every day she used to sit beside me to make me do my home work.....She'll be having a small stick with her most of the times.....My mother is a typical school teacher...So she never bothered flapping her stick when I was wrong.....but there were occasions when my mom cried with me after her tiny punishments..!!...If you ask me about my concept of an ideal match....I'll definitely say this.."She should be like my mother".....

But after my Matriculation my mother started asking me doubts...I wondered why my encyclopedia is asking me doubts ....but some how I realised that She made me fly and I now know to fly higher.......thanks mom for making me what I am.......

I started with much things to say...the topic called "women" but My Mom is enough to show what a Women is.....She is wrapped with all the qualities of a Perfect women...Love You Mom....mwhaaaa...... ;-)

A Short Love Message with Much Intensity :-)

2009-05-15T02:18:00.008+05:30

Well,see the quote below....!!!

"When I was Drowning in the sea called Perdition,You came like an angel to save me...Now I know that my life is safe in the hands of my angel. Even the Sea storm and gale that came in between couldn't tear us apart and I know that our relation is so Strong that no one can tear us apart coz U are my soul...!!!"

This is a quote made by me for my chum, one year back and I found it in a piece of paper in my wallet.....My chum asked me to write something with some literature for giving it to his girl friend.....Any way I made it short but with much intensity.....some how I liked it very much after the Completion...!!!

Synopsis : -

In fact that guy was lost in life [Drowning in perdition]....when a girl came like an angel to his life.....Now he is sure that he is in safe love with his love....The sea storm and gale here represents the parents of that girl and the problems that occured in between... :-) ..and they couldn't even tear them apart....and so and so that girl is his soul now and no one can tear them apart ....!!!

"Relations" ...A much Complicated One to Deal With..!!!

2009-05-14T22:34:00.012+05:30

Well...Before I start I would like to thank all my readers who have visited this blog ,read my articles and told their opinions,comments and criticisms....I would like to "dedicate" this to all my readers...Let our relationship become stronger as the needle in the clock runs.....!!!

As usual I don't have any impromptu as I start....I am here today to tell you something about Relations or what you call "Relationships'....."Relations" seems to be very necessary as we live in a society....We have ,kinships,Friends,fellow beings,mates,love etc etc etec...In fact its difficult to describe all type of relations here...better say I am lazy to do so.....

I would rather say most of the relations changes with time and there is no need of a point of controversy here....Its the need of the hour to make new relations what ever it be and there is no meaning in regretting for what you lost....how many of us keeps in touch with our 'best friend' who studied with us in the kindergarten ??...Time played its role and we met so many people and made so many relations....we got new friends and even new chums.....

Now lets talk about friendship....How many of your friends can die for you if you are in a need..?? As the old quote says "A friend in need is a friend indeed"..As you reads this you will be wondering with your question...What this idiot is saying ??...Now answer me for the question..?? If it seems difficult for you to answer my question I'll say .....

If there is some one who will die for you when you are in a need hold that person tight else there is a chance that you will loose them in the long run called life.....But If there is some one who will do what you want without sacrificing their life then trust them....coz that person can hold you......thatz the simple way of defining good friendship...!!!!....

Relations depends on sacrifices and understandings..If you can't sacrifice something then it will be difficult for you to maintain them.....There were Occasions when I felt the importance of relations....I am not going to speak to you about that in detail...coz it may be boring..!!!

Love and friendship ??..How many of us can differentiate it..?? I would rather say a person in the 20's won't be able to do it.....According to Charles Caleb Colton..."Friendship often ends in love but love in friendship never"....but this point of controversy is true in a lay man's eyes....but if we gets into the detail of some affairs it is not true.....!!!

I'll accept the fact that "some relations have no names" just coz some times some people can be what ever you want..You can't call them neither as a love nor a friend nor a sibbling....It is a stuff to be felt and it cannot be understood just through verbal expressions,speech or thought...

It is not necessary that one should keep in touch regularly with another to maintain a relationship...Gud relations should be made from the heart not from the affections you show.....One should be able to communicate through mind....I guess its possible even though its bit difficult.....

I guess keeping a relation with our soul have great importance....If each and every one is able to communicate with their soul then it will be easy to control worldly pleasures which can even control the temporal world....A soul can be your most trusted friend at times....I think you must have experienced a phenemenon in which you felt as if some one was saying to do something or not to do something and thatz the voice of your soul.....

Relations is a huge and complicated topic that is to be discussed like an epic...I tried to give an outline of what I had to say . To be frank I am not that satisfied with this post....Any way as I said let our relations be stronger and stronger.......!!!

Thoughts and Actions...

2009-05-13T00:38:00.009+05:30

Well....As I start I don't have anything to blog...Don't know whether I'll complete this or not.....some days back I got some things to say to you people....But due to my laziness I couldn't even vault through the steps to reach my room...Finally the menace called exams was over..I was back in my den with a free heart.....Cigars are playing an important role in my life..don't know Why I am much attached to it at times....though it weakens my health most of the times...I remember some one saying that "A cigarete can be your best friend....coz when U feel lonely it gives u a company"....one way or the other its true...but definitely against morality..so I'll say better avoid it....

Now lying here in my bed It seems as if I am trapped in the four walls of my room....the fan was plying in its full speed....Looking at it my mind was travelling some where else...yeah....dreamz and thoughts again....beautiful dreams and powerful thoughts can make your soul happy and energetic at times....one day I'll be a lawyer .....A lawyer with lots of passions,money,fame and power...did I miss something..??...yup another important thing that people don't have today is "peace of mind"...but I have it at times....Most of the times I am losing it now a days....My mind was lost in thoughts...Life can be compared to a journey....A journey were hard work at the beginning matter a lot....It decides which deviation you should take....well I have started my journey but the work have not yet started...A ferment is necessary for the bolt...most of the times life itself is suppressing me..its better to say I am suppressed by my actions...If u believe in some astronomy they call it actions of your time..,,some how or the other I am made to believe in my fate by my life.....now let me ask a question to myself...when did I had good time..???..When shall My good times come..?? The answer that my mind gave me was ...Your good times and Bad times is controlled by your actions...So better control your actions and this can bring your time to good even if it is in the bad track....

Yup...I understood...but most of the times My plans are very huge,optimistic and perfect...but as it comes to action..I fail to maintain my plans and thoughts...I fails and Fails...don't know why...whom shall I curse..??

Again I am cursing myself...but my pathetic supporting atmosphere comes like a bitch to make problems worse...I know that I have atmospheres to make all things right......but its not that easy to do so......

Enjoying each and every part of your life is not easy...How many of us can enjoy the hot sun,dashing winds and the timeless rain..???...If u can find an enjoyment then you'll be the one.....these things can also be compared to life........

A hermit never win his life.....but he loses each and every part of his life by obtaining solitude....what a hermit does is escaping from life.....the same dedication if he should have shown in life he should have been in a better position.....Talking about peace of mind here..."does the hermits have peace of mind..???" The question still remains in front of me without an answer......some says yes and some says no...but any way I have heard of saints who can even control the climatic condition.......

Life teaches us many lessons..but who studies the lessons..??? You can't study the lessons taught by life because you are trapped in the four walls called relations...You can only watch them....else you need to break them out.......

to be continued .......any time.......

A vague called "Life"

2009-03-21T23:26:00.007+05:30

well...Now I am here to speak to you bit seriously.....some thing about my mind....a mind of a hombre in his 20's...!!..well,this will not be the case with every person....its midnight now...I dont know how each day passes by..most of the time i plays the role of a spectator who have a close look at life...I plans many things...but with that planz.."the time" plays its role like 'being' a hurricane...I could only just watch the hurricane getting away through my window called my mind...The hurricane takes everything with it including my dreamz,planz, and every minute thing....How can I save these things...?? ...May be...sometimes I knows the answer and Sometimes I don't...But I have seen people resisting the hurricane so easily and giving life to their dreamz and planz..Its not an easy job..As" rome was not built in a day"...Some times some questions circles me with their laugh like an evil..But i feel a contempt which sometimes result in a disliking of "myself"..Why do I live ??..For whom am I living..?? For what reason am I living..?? ....Where will I reach in the long run called life ?? ...Any way I have answers...sharp Optimistic answers for some questions...and for some the answer seems to be a vaccum.....

When I walk through a busy street called life....I never bothered the hot sun nor the heavy dust nor the vehicles that were passing through my side...instead I was lost in thoughts.... My brain was like an oven which sometimes made me feel that I am hotter than the sun...many thoughts were going through my mind...I used to publish it.....some people gave me compliments for that and told that I have "creativity"...but i dont know....how many of them knew that those were not just "creative thoughts" but my life..!!! .... how can u call it as a talent..??

Most of the time life was playing with me....I played the hardest role...though it seemed to be easy...now I realize...its never that easy to complete this drama called life..."What I suffered were not sufferings"..things are yet to come....I prayed and prayed and prayed....some people says that my prayers were not strong,some says that I was no dedicated...but I still believes..what I did was from the depth of my heart ........

Many thoughts passes by each and every minute...I shared most of them........but being practical....???...thatz the main question that screams at me like a night mare.........

Some times lying in the sands of a beach in an evening seems to be the most felicitous thing in life....watching the roaring waves that can take you any moment, staggering at the endless limits that u see...and smiling at the stars and moon and speaking to yourself...It can be called as "innocence"...I still believes.."I am innocent"...may be thatz the greatest defect that you can find in a person in this 21st century.....

I can't write much as sleep is ebracing me with its soothness..I gets it every day ..whatever it be......cheerzzz sleep........though I know that this post is not complete..I am stopping here..!!!

Simply.....but ......Frankly and Humbly.... :-)

2009-03-16T11:37:00.012+05:30

well,,,I am going to tell you something very simply but frankly and humbly....thatz it.....Now its 11:43 am....me sitting in my room....listening to feel my love.....just dedicating this melody to each and every girl i wanted to love......as my star sign [Libra] says I am flirtious.....but its upto you my girls to decide that.....but one way or the other I cant say an answer for that......coz I believe that I have not yet flirted.....but sometimes I feel that....so I asks a question to myself...Am I flirting..???....that time my mind says no dude.....U are not...!!!... this happens with every girl and boy in my age ...I guess....U can call it 'Fantasies of Mind"..According to my philosophy "Enjoy each and every Moment....[provided that]... U dont hurt any one"......Now If u can't accept my view...let me ask you one question....'Why do boys and Girls cares their dressing,fashion,make up...??? ....Its simply because to attract the opposite sex.....If u do this...then you are a human being...a perfect one....If u dont do this at all instance u can be called called as partially insane....yup I do hereby accept the fact that...I am some times an idiot...because some times I dont care...the way i dress or the way I make me appear in front of others....But sometimes I do cares more than any one else.....and I have made the conclusion that when I cares....I plays the role of a magnet...coz opposite poles attract each other....hence it is proved..he he.....now......

To be frank I came here not to tell you this..but to tell something else.....some bla bla bla....I was lying on my bed listening to some music.....but upon the hot oven called... EXAMZ ....so I thought of blogging something......now let me start from the very begining.....its 12:05 now.....its a sunny day.......I am all alone in my den......the most interesting fact is that....can u guess...???.....oyeee...dont go complicated.......the fact is that I am having Examz on 23rd...still now I haven't even started studying......I have to write 12 papers on a row this time....5th sem,3rd sem and 1st sem....now talking about 1st sem examz...

As told in my earlier blog..i was having a room....during that time.......may be its coz of examz,,,i took a room for the first time.....before the first exam....my room mate told me something.......its our first day ...right..??? so lets celebrate after studying......yeah...I agreed with a silent answer...though I didn't want it the day before exam.....we took some mischieveous alcohol....put that in front of that and started studying upon a condition that we'll touch it only after finishing that text........any way we completed our studies succesfully.......had a descent drink.....the very next day we wrote the examz very well....cheeerzzzz........this same procedure continued 4 the next exam also........that too we wrote...even though it was not so well written......the 3rd exam was some how postponed for some reason by the university......and on the day before the fourth exam....we both came to the conclusion that we dont know any thing......we were complete zeros.....so the old procedure will be a foolish idea......so we started studying......we studied something....by that time 'one of my friend called me and asked me where I am..I told that i was in my room...." ..he told that he is coming with a surprise......

Within half an hour he came....Ohhhh...I forgot to introduce you that idiot...In fact he is a film director[assistant] and also a national award winner...He won the best director award for a short film....I should say that he is a completely self made man......ok ok....leave that..lets come to our story.....he came with some bucks and told us ...."I am going to give you a treat....but for no reason..."... he brought some alcohol......we gave off our studies.....we thought..."lets study after taking some drinks....so that we can understand better...any way its law ...right..??."...to be frank I have heard of people studying the day before the examz...with some drinks...I dont know how they manages....but thatz a truth any way.........but some how we failed to study...we thought its enough........for today...the rest 2morow morning...to be frank we have covered more than half of that subject by that time....but after being drunk...we were talking about history..."the indian history" instead....dont know why....he he :-).....we spoke about films,history...almost all stupid topics including "poli tricks" ......

I still remembers one of my friend's famous dialogue......he was drunk one day....he wanted to call a girl and ask a doubt....atlast he did that...u know what it is..???....he called a girl in the hostel,,,and asked....."ee pakkavada whiskiyil mukkunathanoo nallathe atho pachyke kazhikunathanoo nallate...??? ""....now lets come to our topic....suddenly i thought of making some fun...but with some risk...any way we were intoxicated.......we planned of getting into the law college hostel at night....2 be frank its the worst place for a first year law student to be....but I wanted to be in.........

The director agreed to fulfill my dream......3 of us....went to the college.....the law college had a complete mystic look at night......some thing like a dracula's palace....it seemed as if the dead criminals who wanted to take revenge against the lawyers lived there.........any way we entered inside......the director was leading from the front.......he took us to the hostel...to be frank i was excited as well as nervous as i entered the campus....any thing can happen now........but some how we managed to get inside.........they started staring at us and asked who we are....??we kept silence....."i thought... thalle pani kitti"......some people were having their drink .....the director went and asked ... 'if he could also get a drink" ...i thought of running away....but no way we were trapped.......one guy went towards him as if he was going to give a punch....then suddenly he asked some names.....the drunken ones told that "they are not here ....come 2morow....u get lost now".....as i heard the word "get lost"..i was happy.....some how both of us managed to pull him outside the campus.....and told him that "we are happy"......2 be frank my wish was fulfilled....though i was praying very hardly fore some minutes.....then he asked if we had some wish again.....by this time it was 1 am midnight...we went to our room......opened the nxt bottle.......2 be frank...dont know how i slept....i lost my conscious.....the nxt day we woke up by 10...half an hour have finished....."exam"...some how...i washed my face...brushed my teeth ..had a quick visit to the bathroom....changed my clothes...ran to the college...but i was late....the principle asked,..."why you were late??...I told....sir my room mate fell in bathroom...so i went to hospital",...sir plzz give me a chance.....but he told.....'U write it next time...that will be better..."...I begged...but I couldn't make up his mind......when i got the questions...I found that I could answer those questions easily.....but what to do....bitter experiences makes life...right..??......

Any way thatz how i wrote my first semester law examz....hope i can be a Gud Criminal Lawyer just because I did all these things..he he :-) .......

I don't have any worries or tensions now coz I haven't studied any thing.. so let me make some worries.....I am going to study my lessons....this time I am not ready for a compromise...I shall....at any cost......!!!!

Nothing is there in aTitle....

2009-01-27T15:17:00.008+05:30

well.....Sitting in my room.....I thought of writing a blog simply because....I lost a day....In fact I loses each and every day in my life coz each day happens without any improptou....Every night before going to sleep I swears....From tomorrow morning every nasty thing should go in its way...but for hell's sake nothing happens right....some how I want to do many things....but ............what ever it be...lets talk about ..........I gets up by 7:30...though my train leaves the station by 7:15...somehow manages to get up...lazy.....thinks about the day.....ohhhh boring...should i go or not.....mm..now talking about the day.....brushes the teeth....watching tv...U will be wondering what this idiot says....of course dude....thatz a part of my life......takes some food......takes a quick bath.....find some books....In fact most of the time I finds a book under my bed.......take some money..well my father gives that....In fact it is his right to give me money each day.....runs to the bus stand.....catch a bus.......jump in the signal......and a long run to the railway station...by this time the train must have started with its horn......In fact I am an expert in getting into running trains.........well one of my friend who will be reading this...will be thinking.......this idiot told me all these things like a story to me in the morning....In fact I Kills that poor girl each and every day by speaking all types of rubbish stories that is happening in my life......well cheerzzz machu for being that special friend....any way she some how manages to give me sensible solutions for my insane questions.....now talking about gud girl friendz......I have only limited girl friendz....well they are my valuable assets any way.......now talking about the train....I usually finds my friends in my train.....then what happens next is complete freak out.......ulllaaaa laaaaa...koooooooiiiiiiii........giving taataaa to small children in the slum near the railway station is my main hobby...then comes college junction....just peeping through the door to find some chicks....I know....but I never finds any one.......then comes the hot discussions....atlast some how I manages to reach trivandrum by 10:10 ...the first hour must have finished and the second hour must have started......now running to catch a bus to my college.....some how i reaches my college by 10:30.....by this time i will be hungry......"well the phne is ringing...let me take it"..yup I am back.........dentist wants to see me urgently.....well you will be wondering for what....some clip is being put in my teeth to make it a level......in fact it has been 2 months since i have seen him.....

U know I am busy man most of the time..I pretends to be busy most of the time though I am not....he he....well today evening I should go..."..mm...now lets come back to our old topic......hungry...by that time.....my stomach if it had a brain must have thought......"U stupid why are you not giving me some food ??"..".My dear stomach....i also loves having some tasty cuisine.....but you know stomach..I have been travelling all the time"...now talking about the break fast I enters devaki restaurant by 10:30....In fact it is a small shop.....unnoticed......u can get tasty "steam cake".....well phone ringing again..........In fact that is my dearest chum calling.........well he is drunk now.....In the morning there was a small issue.....well they have took the revenge any way ....... now celebrationz on the go....he called me to
say a "sorry "and a "missing u "......he told this to me...."da *****.......ninne manaporvam vilikathirunatha...nee vannal ennike manasamathanamayitte fit aavan pattila.....If i was there he should not hve drunk beyond a limit....any way alcoholic consumption is injurious to health...now talking about steam cake.....there are many stories related to steam cake......I still remembers my old 5th standard.....auriel master ...my english teacher cleared my doubts of steam cake...and "kanji"...rice soup....any way lets not go into the details...that I will blog later....I guess.......I used to hate steam cake..........but after having steam cake,kadala,and papadam from devaki......yummmyyyyy........I am in love with you devaki...In fact davaki have lots of boy friendz......he he....I am also one of them......but the problem is that you have to wait a lot for that yummy dish...coz the steam plates in devaki is always busy.......by this time I must have losed my second hour also....but some times i gets it...it depends on devaki......now after having food from devaki....I walks into the gr8 campus.....

I have to walk some distance to reach my campus..In fact I loves it....It can be a yearning any way.....the time must be 11:10 now......on the left side of campus block there are some pipes .....where the piper boys sit.....piper boys includes boys from each class...hans,shambhu,pan paraag,wills,gold,...all type of related stuffs are shared there...U can also get some hot discussions on hot chicks,interesting current updates etc...all type of fun happens there......in fact it is a pakka lawyer's corner........ some how..... I quit smoking....I used to......but now I don't........rarely with alcohol...thatz it...."dejavu"...that have happened now.....i have seen the same scene in my dream.......like blogging this stuff.....dejavu.....i guess it happens with every one.....in fact it is a para-psychological feeling........now I am not going to speak about it with my limited knowledge...though i does this trick........most of the times...bla bla bla...atlast my oponent have to accept my point....muhahhaaaaa.........Ohhh....we have diverted from the subject..........

My First Job....My First Remuneration...[ Updated and Completed Atlast ] :-)

2008-12-09T18:55:00.018+05:30

Well, You will be thinking what I am going to blurt.....As the heading says "My First Job and My First Remuneration"..the word remuneration is used here with a good instinct...Its better to say Remuneration than saying Salary...coz.....Read On.....cheerz...

This is a real chronicle that happened during my first year law graduation..During this time I was dwelling with my friends in a rented house in Thiruvanathapuram.We had a Porsche life there,say a real bachelors life, I was really enjoying coz that was my first time experience away from my den..'here no lions to scold the cub"..he he..joking yar....After a month I got bored of that life..coz I always loved changes what ever it be...I thought of doing something different from others....I was in search for my questions and answers....yeah...at last i got the question.....'Why Can't I earn some money""Why should I ask My parents for money...I am now grown up "...??....I had classes only upto 1 pm...the rest of the time i used to rove through the streets just watching the busy city....In fact every one was having a busy life....except me.....Now the next question was made...'Who will employ me ?....First of all I was a small guy that time...a guy only in his seventeens.....the next obstacle was that I was a Law Student.....but I didn't gave up...I searched and Searched...atlast I came to know that ,there is a Job agency who is recrutting students for part time jobs.....I was very excited when I saw this in a poster during my wandering....I went to that firm that day itself....and enquired....It was a small office in a building with 2-3 employees.They told me that First I have to register using 250 bucks..I agreed to register and gave my bio data for the purpose...I was asked to sign some documents...they told me to sign fast...but I took my own time...coz I didn't wanted to get cheated..I read the whole document...so many conditions were there.....One of the main condition was that I should give half of my salary whatever it be to the placement agency in advance...then only they will give me the appointment letter...They asked me to come the nxt friday itself....I killed my days for that friday....

Finally Friday after my class in the afternoon...I went there...they told that they can give me a job in computer firm as a DTP operator which fetches me 2000 bucks per month...I was much excited...I can't express my happiness I had that time here...cozz............I felt that I conquered the whole world coz I am going to earn and live...."Self Made'...I dreamed and started planning things..."What all things shall I do with that money"...but after some minutes I realized that 2000 bucks if I being self made is nothing.....I just planned it to spend out just to become freaky,..like 2 buy some new clothes,shoes and to live like those guys who showed their power with money by making changes every now and then.....Or "Why shouldn't I save it and use for buying a bike in Tvm ??...Several plans flashed through my mind.....But the next question flashed like a quick lightning...I suddenly got out of my thoughts...'From where shall i get 1000 bucks for paying the advance to the placement agency..Can't speak this out at home...coz "achan" won't allow...thatz 4 sure....

Finally I decided to ask "amma"...I just told the matter to her....somehow managed to get the money from her..."U know boys are more attached to Mother"....I also begged her not to tell this to achan...amma somehow agreed and gave me a promise that she will not tell this to achan..but upon the condition that the day I am getting worse in my studies she will tell achan....I agreed...I was sure that I can keep my studies going whatever happens..."In fact I have proved that earlier"....last minute studies with some dedication often works for me....the next monday after coming back from home...I went to the placement agency ...gave the the money and receieved the appointement letter........I had my job in a computer centre near medical college...I reached there and found the shop...It was a small shop which had almost all the facilities....5 computers,one telephone booth, a xerox machine.Spiral binding was also done there....I saw a short man standing in front of the shop..Atlast I came to the Conclusion that he is the owner....and gave the letter to him.....there was no change of any expression in his face.....he asked my details and asked whether I know to do DTP....I told I knew everything...In fact I didn't know anything about Page maker......

I knew Ms Word..that too to type..he he....He gave me a document to type and set a time limit just to check my professional ability...In fact I had a very gud typing speed...so I finished it within Minutes...He was satisfied and appointed me....In fact there were some ladies working there....they were "Pulis" in DTP...I wanted to study something from them hiding the fact that I didn't knew anything.....some how I managed to clear some of my doubts.....Now the time was 4:30 and it was my time to get into the "ring"...the ladies went away by 5.....I was all alone....I got struck there.....After an hour of boring work I found that there is net connected to every system....I was excited....muhaaahhaaaa...... :) ....but my happiness didnt last for long......

A society lady came with a work...In fact that was my first work.....she had to type some question papers....I wondered...I can type...but how will I set the questions in order...?? .....My mind told me to do an experiment....I took a risk...I started typing without arranging....she asked me what I was doing..I told that I will arrange it last...she agreed and somehow I managed to finish typing by 2 hours....In fact there were 20 pages...I guess...physics,chemistry,maths.....hmmm there was a lot.....the time was 9 when I finished typing...now the arranging part...some how i managed to arrange it in half an hour... 9:30 now....I tried to give a print...but alllaaaassss....the damn printer was not connectd...I connected it and tried again...damn.,..some prblm again.....U can guess my condition that time...In fire....the owner was staring at me....

"He must have thought what the hell is this idiot doing".....In fact I was thinking.........[Censored] he he.....some how I managed to take 2 pages....the printer got stuck again....but this time accidently...I closed the "word document" where the whole thing was done .......In fact I didn't knew that it is to be saved...that stuff was not saved....huh.....U know what happened..??....I lost the whole thing....by this time the society lady was saying...I am too late I am too late..I need to go...will you plz do it faster....bla bla bla "....I was in a state of "benumb"...I didn't knew what to do....f*****......[CENSORED AGAIN].....

Atlast I had to relieve the truth that everything was lost.....I expected some obscenity from her...but she was too descent....she with a smile told that its ok.....but I could see her choler on the other side of her face....the time was 10:15 now...the only thing I could do was to give a promise....I promised ..."aunty..I'll complete it tonight itself....dont worry I can fork out the whole matter printed in ur home tonight itself"...she gave me her address and phone number....The Owner was petulant.....He but with his false smile gave me the keys and told me to close when i finishes it and to give the keys to the security...I was Peckish by this time..but I agreed...I started my work again...some how I finished it by 12:30 mid night...much dedicated..right..???...I took print outs..saved it...huh....no more imbecility again.....

I closed the shop and gave the keys to the security....Got out of the shopping complex....I couldn't get a bus....In fact the lady dwelled in pattom.....3-4 km away from medical college.....some how I managed to get an Auto..went there...found the house.....but no one was there...I could hear the sound of fan inside...I tried the phone but no one attended.....I called and called but no one replied to my calls....complete mystery....I just put that stuff in the letter box and wrote an annotation.....and left the place....I asked the auto chettan to drop me in my room....I had to pay arounf 60 bugs 4 travelling coz it was night tariff....First day itself complete loses........but I was not ready 2 give up....

I reached my room....my friends were waiting 4 me.....they were 4 of them....sanakan,vishnu,gopan chettan and Rajan annan...sanakan was working in a firm near by...In fact he was formerly a law student..had to give up studies due to some problems with the University.....Vishnu was my senior ,Gopan chettan was a producer in doordarshan and Rajan chettan himself played the role of a security of that house and he was a gardener too....they were having some hot discussions......"politics"....they asked why i was late...I told the whole story....they made fun of me.and gave me my food [My gud friendz didnt forget me..they kept some food 4 me]....but I was to tired...I just fell into bed.......into the deepness of a gud sleep...........

Days went and went..My job became worse and worse...everyday the owner used to scold me...I couldn't even go to my home on sundays and saturdays...I felt very exhausted...but some how i pretended before my mind that I am strong..Most of the days in the night I had to walk around 5 km to reach my den...because after 10...its difficult to get a bus from medical college.....its also difficult to get food.....In fact i was making useless burdens...days went and went.....one day the shop owner told me that he wants some one else to help me...I promised to give a person for that...

I told this to my room mates...one of my room mate Vishnu agreed to this....he was my senior..the nxt day he also came with me for the job...In fact he also didn't knew anything about the job concerned..but he told that to the owner at the first instance itself....Finally he was assigned the job of taking Xerox.....now another comic scene.... :) ...he was having an affair...so all the time he was in phone..even when sleeping ......here also he was talking even when doing his job......the shop owner was looking at him very rudely all the time.....days went and went...my work became hectic and hectic..but some how i managed....but atlast as time went i got bored and i started chatting in between my work...the owner warned me.....but i never minded him....one fine day..net was dis connected..i enquired..the ladies told that....since i was using net...they got huge bills and so the owner cut the net.....

I was wondering.....because how can this happen in a cafe.??.....they uses an unlimited connection.....from that instance i started doubting the ladies there....I understood that they are doing some dirty spy work over there......Hectic days went very very slowly like a snail....atlast 25 days have finished....both of us planned to quit.....we said that to the owner.....some how he managed to get a new worker by that time.....In fact that man was such a great friend for us...he was a violinist.....he was also an experienced person in DTP.....

So we planned to quit by the last date of that month.....atlast the final day came....I planned many things with that 2000 bucks....both of us failed to buy it on the specified date due to some reasons....so we asked for another appointement so that we could collect our salary.....the shop owner told us to collect the cash from his security......after a week we went to collect the salary.........the shop owner was not there.....we went to the shop......the spy bitches were on their work....we saw the security....he with a thrawt....took his purse and asked us..."How much You Expect".??...I was astonished....I said 2000 bucks..what else..??.....He smiled....and took 500 bucks and gave it to me...and another 250 bucks to my friend......

We were shocked...we thought that man is trying to make us fools for fun...A month of hectic work and only this much....???....I couldn't even dream of it....In fact more than 3000 bucks were spent that month due to that job....I told him to give the remaining cash...but after some time we understood that its a fact that the f**** gave that security only that much....we ran to the shop to see that bastard...In fact we were much annoyed......the ladies told that he went out..we called at his mobile..but he didn't attend.....

We waited till evening....by evening he came......we asked the cash.....we spoke rudely....we were that angry..but he was not willing to give the cash....we shouted at him....and told him..."beware we are law students..."...but he didn't mind us....we planned of teaching him a lesson....I went to the "ganapathi temple "near by....any way its my first salary...right...?? ....we planned to make a party that night....though we were much irritated....but allas......later only that thing came to my mind..that was the first day of the month....all bars and wine shopes are closed...no way of getting alcohol...some how i was much depressed......

I wanted to get inside some alcohol....we went to a bar in baker junction asked the security..."anna...ore full kittan valla vakupum undaa..cash ore prashnam alla..."but he failed to satisfy us...he told that there is a toddy shop near by and toddy will be available..we went there...We entered inside...lotz of drunk people there.....I knew that gud toddy is not available there...but what to do.......no other way....In fact my friend was much descent....he don' drink......he started having some food...from "kallu shaape"....I asked for a litre of toddy...toddy is given in clay pots in toddy bars....I took my time....drank it all.....nxt ordered for a glass....mmm....i was intoxicated by this time...bought two bottles for the people in my room....and got out of the toddy shop....."Gud mood"...now i felt like giving a slap to the bloddy bastard....lighted a cigarete and both of us started walking to our room....it was 7'o clock....my legs measured the road..he he.....Stopped at the next shop...bought some cigarettes again....that time a bit expensive cigarette...'555".....i was singing ....atlast my friend managed to take me to our room...every one were waiting for us......

They came towards us with eagerness and asked.."Did You get The Remaining Salary "...My friend answered there questions...In fact I was completely Intoxicated...I gave those bottles of toddy to them....they made fun of us...but I didn't bother any thing....I had a quite gud sleep.....The nxt fine day I decided to get the remaining at any cost......I decided to teach a lesson that idiot....I knew that I won't get the money through proper channel....This time my wicked mind came up with an idea...I decided to get it any cost..........

I called one of my friend who was a free land journalist and told the matter.He promised me to get it for me.....In fact my co-worker was satisfied with what he got......

The next fine day me and the Journalist went to the shop again.....The owner sawing us snubbed away..In fact his snub was clearly intentional.....We asked the women workers about his escape from us...they didn''t tell any thing...Instead they were making fun of us...I was much disgusted...Suddenly my journalist went prankish...he started playing his role...He showed his identity card to them and told them he is a journalist .He then asked "Is the medical college near this ??" Only women staff is here right ??" In fact some places near medical college were famous for women trafficking and the police have raided it...In fact that was a incongrous joke with a polite conversation....

Then we went to the shop nearby..In fact it was also a xerox shop run by the sibling of my wicked boss....we told that we are going to give a petition in the police station and gave a copy of it to him...In fact he was scared reading that.....Suddenly for God's sake the Sub Inspector of the nearest Police station came by and we told the matter to him....He told to write a postulation and bring it to the police station so that he will enquire into the matter....Seeing all this that sibling was panicked...he took the phone and told the matter to the owner.....In fact our deterrcene did the trick.....

Within minutes I saw the owner running towards us...His face was pale red ..He was much panicked and it seemed as if he will cry any moment..In fact he was informed all this matters by his workers and sibbling.....He came and told me...."Plz brother...Don't make any trouble....we will discuss what You said..." In fact I was not ready for the compromise....He had to give the remaining bucks.....!!!

This time the puckish factor did the trick.....I offered my journalist friend a biriyani and he was happy with my treat...As I was finishing my biriyani....My phone ringed again...This time It was one of my friend calling for some money....In fact I was happy to give that cash to him just coz it was for a noble cause....afterall its My first Salary...Right...?? ...Let it do some productive work. ..... ;-)

Tiny Delights....!!!

2008-09-01T16:13:00.001+05:30

As I write this blog I am in Island Express,S3 compartment, berth number 3 .To be frank I spends around 3 to 4 hours in train each day…so I am very much attached to that long snake……U will be wondering what I am saying about…..any way expect only these type of stuff from this blog……..If u are interested go on……
Hmmm I am back from my college….now…..on my journey to quilon……..after a long interval the train started with its usual horn again……I was watching each and every person from the birth I was seated..I was getting a complete view of what was happening…….The compartment was little crowded…People are still on the move in search for the seats……..Most of the people have started sleeping..say cat sleeping..thatz the correct word….two guys were sitting opposite to me…one is sleeping[Pretending] with ear phones in his ears and cap on his face….The other guy was reading a book…he was concentrating hard on his book [also looking at the girl sitting down in between.The beautiful girl sitting down was seriously thinking of something…….looking through the window……she was lost in thoughts……ohhh…..the lady sitting next to her is staring at me….she will be thinking …what I am scribbling in my book….looking at that girl……Now the guy opposite to me have closed his book and have started looking at that beauty with that concentration he had in his book…..Huh…half an hour have gone……the phone in my hand was still singing “pinneyum pinneyum aaro kinavinte”….now all are in a state of cat sleep including that guys and girl….the man sitting in side of the window was in a executive style…..he is now looking at me with his mouth open…..[in fact he was sleeping]… I thought of pouring some water into his mouth..just for fun……but I’ll not reach in this condition in Kollam…….just joking……In fact every person will be thinking about some thing when they are sleeping………Now a vendor have passed by calling “Rosted Cashew Nuts’…..he was loading that bag in his head…..to be frank he is an unauthorized vendor…If he is caught he will be fined a minimum of 5oo bugs and that must be what he have earned for a week…..the court and the police shows no pity to these type of people…… ‘No justice”…in railway courts……..he will be also maintaining a small family which includes 2 children…….now they will be in class doing some problems that were given to them by their teacher………hmmm…..i still remember my good old school days,,,,,,,crying coz…….i hated going to school…waiting for the auto to come………..in front of the school with my sweet little sister…she was studying in 1’st standard and me in 4th I guess…………………….some days my mother used to pick us from school…………..gud old days,……………….i know that those dayz won’t be back………. ………..I had a gud sweet girl friend…she used to sit beside me always……………so sweet….we used to copy our home works from her……………where is she now..???...............she will be in some college now…………….I can’t recollect her name now…………………….If I had one more life like that now…………..we used to play SAT those days………..our teacher Helen miss used to take us to the terrace and she will be teaching us some drill exercise………..hmmm………………Cynthi miss,Helen miss,Usha Miss……….. I saw my Helen miss last month……she was very happy when she told her that I was her old student…Cynthi miss and Usha miss must be retired …I guess……………………hmmm………….leave that,,…now the train has passed paravur lake………..its very beautiful to see this lake in the morning and in the evening………………hmmm……………its little romantic…if u haven’t told ur love to your[I loves coz………..…]………who ever it may be…….its all about loving and being loved…………now I have reached college Junction …….its time for me to get down from this berth,……………..remaining things in my next blog…keep reading if ur interested……………..